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Sweetest goodbye,

2009-08-28T10:08:00.000-07:00

Hihi ! I'm ditching my blog on the 623rd post , woah O:
I like this skin a lot though :(

Moving to wordpress this time and hopefully i'll stay there for good with no complaints(Y). Relink if you want to . (:

See you around , blogger 8)

Clickity Click

if this is what i call home , why does it feel so alone ?

2009-08-26T08:23:00.000-07:00

(lmao)

Hellowmellowfellow.

It's so coldddd tonight, i was wearing my mom's ancient wooly jacket and it makes me itch. I don't know why i'm blogging now because it's like 1140 and i really want to sleep but i can't i suddenly had this energy rush thang thanks to someborrrday. This sucks .
- I can't do tuition homework
- i think my voice is dying
- i need to stop grabbing every opportunity to sleep
- NO MORE SUBWAY COOKIES
- my chinese cher made me write my compo twice .
- i needa hair cut pleaseeeeee
- i still owe many presents
- angry.
- Chrome is screwed leh .
- Blogger can go and die .

I feel so aimless right now. Must stop thinking because some things just don't have to matter . Why so clueless ?
Everything's so (N) right now :

The stars lean down to kiss you , i lie awake and miss you

2009-08-25T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hello . Blog is becoming ugly . I don't like it.

Just back from LYP concert, feel damn shag now. Then i remembered that i have to write a stupid chinese compo. To write or not to write. Time is passing so slow. Who's putting on a mask , and why ?

:(

Because it takes two to whisper quietly,

2009-08-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

HI . NO pictures still because blogger's been bad . Anyway my com is up up up already but i'm having a hard time putting my backed up files back in here . AND tmr got geog test and i totally brought someone else's core geog text home, without my notes . Stupidddd :(
Tmr is concert with mingzzzz & the rest (:

I'm so tired :(

Macbook is coming in a few days :) Tomorrow there's afrnoon lessons , meaning i can't go get my phone . SOS . Anyway ya so pissed off nowadays . But it's okay . I'll sleep real early today so i can study tomorrow in class . I don't want to run 2.4 . Again .

:(

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of ?

2009-08-23T06:16:00.000-07:00

Hello . Quick post .

Today was a half nice day. went for church and audrey came for YD today! Later went for prata then tods and had lunch with sarah . Then later i had to go yck and met alvin yanting and jiankun then bussed to vic's place . Go there like not to do SS HAHA ended up trying/buying clothes and henna-ing. Everyone did except me LOL , even my Levis jeans tio D: Then slacked around and then went to get shandy :D Then bussed to amk for dinner @ near yck cc . Homeddd.

Tired like hellllll .

What good does it do for you to go around telling ?

Did you stand too close to the fire ?

2009-08-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

Ellowz .

Good . My files are backed up nicely into a harddisk . Now hopefully by monday when the people come to fixfix my com will be alive and kickin' again :D

Yesterday was a bad day for a lotta reasons . My phone finally (quote vict) screwed itself . Though i strongly believe it was i who actually screwed the phone. But Victoria delivered the deathblow lol. Well actually it's still alive but just very very majorly screwed. Sending it for repairs later , sigh . I'm using my N73 now , i don't like it , the joystick is spoilt . First the com , now the phone .

I think this term's results are like woah scary like as in bad . First chem test was so-so then second one like kabishhh scary. Then bio looked hard but i thought it was okay so i think that's scary cos it means that i got tricked or sth . Don't talk about math , you know , i know. Passed Chinese . Good . Physics got no hope already because i can hardly say i studied for it. SS was a major failure . English is probably screwed as well . Geog haven't take test yet but will probably die due to not listening to lessons for three terms . Please save my combined humans :(

On a lighter note , i'm eating sardines . And sardines are the besttttttttttttttttttt .

I'll get by :(

These lines of lightning mean we're never alone , never alone

2009-08-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hellowz .Today was alright , i studied with jay and aru after school and it was quite productive , i think . Right now most worried for chemistry because atmosphere is tested (bah) . Four more tests to go , hope my com gets fixed like sooonzxzws :)

The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

i can open your eyes , take you wonder by wonder

2009-08-17T05:06:00.000-07:00

Hello . Computer's still messed up so no pichas .

Yesterday was a good day . Stayed up quite late so today after cca and comm meeting felt damn tired :( Today was alright , lessons , didn't get to cut heart , did english during chinese , had a trigo graph test, bio spa briefing and then cca . Quite drained now . No energy to study for bio & geog at all , i think i can fall asleep anytime now .

Anyway after this week there will probably not be any more tests . YAY . Time to make some plans yawww :)

K i want to:

1. Shop @ Heeren. Have been thinking of getting a new yakpak/ other backpack but sixty dollars fly lolll. Tokidoki :(

2. Buy Body Shop strawberry lip butter . I don't even think i will use it much . Darn why must Body Shop goods smell so damn good . (p/s i don't smell like strawberry afr bathing in strawberry shower gel though)

3. Go to Kbox again HAHAHA .

4. Go to warehouse sales ( inserts cheapo face )

5. Get a fringe cut .

6. Try all sorts of good new food .

But for now , geography , bio , chemistry , grammar and amath .

bio spa trial tmr , i scared siollll .

Notes-to-self :

STILL OWE DAMIAN BDAY PRESENT .

OWE BEI 50 CENTS ( HAHA )

TMR GOT CHEESE CAKE TO EAT :B

kthxbaiwzxs

Whenever said my words, wishing they would be heard

2009-08-13T03:16:00.000-07:00

Hello . Can't put any picture here cos i have none here on my mom's com aka my old com . I think my com got a virus and windows won't start up and it's so irritating i feel like throwing it out of the window . Second time . This com here lags madly and it's in my mom's room and the keyboard sucks i hate this :(

Macbook cometh only at the end of the month so if i can't get my desktop fixed you tell me how ? How how how how how?

So many weird turn of events lately . I probably won't post anything over the weekends and i hope the problem can be solved by then. Oh well , this way i can concentrate on the other things . WHY :/ Why must this happen now of all times . You gain some , you lose some .

Things to do :
- Chinese zuowen
- English stack of 64 pages of exercises .

Study :
- E Math test (tmr)
- Chengyu test (tmr - tell me why i even bother )
- Notes for bio SPA (tues)
- Bio test (wed)
- Geog elect test (wed)
- Grammar test ( ?)

On top of all those stupid things and a hectic week ahead, i haven't completed my tuition homework and piano is still shitlike . And physics test was today , skeptical about whether passing is possible.

:<

the dampness of tears that left a stain where you had wept

2009-08-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

Blogger is finally screwed for me . A boring pictureless post .

Too much talk about it . Too self-righteous for my own good .

I got cut by my school badge on my wrist during phys . Scary. PE was just major slack . Chem . Math was really stupid. Made a great escape from class during Chinese. Chinese CA test popped up out of nowhere . Geog, i cleared all my NeoDebts so i sat at the back with Dq . Lunched with dee then had Chem spa & did w/ gladwin (&he reminded me of some v stupid things LOL ) Geog elec with Dee then she got switched to the front this time HAHA SORRY KZ . Homed .

Screwed up . I did my Mole hw and then there's no chem tomorrow . And i haven't done my stupid math and bio workbook/filing/ or w/e stuffffs. And some super old phys worksheets and many many chinese compos and shittt got mini math test tomorrow .

I just ate my homemade milo ice pop, yumnumnum :D
Bah .

Let me be the one you call , if you jump , i'll break your fall

2009-08-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

To those who are wondering and think that it's totally gross ( eg. Aud ), i AM wearing the same outfit twice and no it's not smelly or grimy and dirty and whatnot . Patriotic is me :)

Churched today , nursery was wild . The same little dude was trying to bite me again and he was totally fighting me . The aunty went to scold him , she's my savior :B But i still like . Afr church went to eat korean food @ Novena . Yumzxzws . Then bought toner and strawberry shower gel YES LA HAHA i like i wanna smell lyk ay shrawberli 8D .
Smells dayumn good.

Afr that spazzed on the car with my cousin . Then i felt motion sick so went home to sleep and woke up at 7 ( FORGOT TO SET ALARM ) so i missed most of my fav part of the NDP :(
Screwit , i want to watch the soldiers and planes . Not gigantic men walking about , fat ladies singing or people dancing in cubicles . Hell not even Barbarella or the blind dood .

& i keep forgetting that there is no school tmrw ! Looks like i can sleep in and snack all day :) and i was planning to finish tuition hw today but seems like i probably won't . Sigh.

Gbye .

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced

2009-08-07T07:22:00.001-07:00

National Day celebrations . Stuck myself in the kitchen most of the time from 630- 10 making sushi and salad bowl whatevrs. Went to haunted house with omar and some girls, kept screaming like a beach because they screamed at me and jabbed me from behind omg . Siying and dq wanted to sing for the karaoke but i refused to LOL so they sang chi song :]

Cleared up and left with DQ for Hougang Mall . Ahhh, nostalgia . Hougang mall has wide variety of shops (: Bought some random stuff and camwhored in toilet lolll. Shopped , tired and went home !

I'm not oblivious to my surroundings . I know and i'm tired of it . Tired of so many bloody things . Can't these things of the past stop plaguing my life and just freaking leave me alone . Annoying like a bitch. Toss it all away . I'm so tired , you know ?

Shh , be quiet you might piss somebody off

2009-08-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

The Insensitive Bastard , the Emotional Freak , the Living in Denial and the Victim Child .

Two days ago , the LID threw away VC's books . IB flew into a rage and EF got all emotional and shit.

Today the IB seriously pissed off EF and VC . Or maybe only VC because EF is too busy crying and trying to comfort herself right now . I wonder, IB , is being an asshole really so much fun ? Maybe i should try too so that you can feel a little of the shit treatment that you so generously dish out to EF and VC ( LID is too busy living in her own world and really couldn't give half a shit) .

You never really cared about VC much , so when is it your place to care whether she eats her veg or not ( and it's not like she didn't have to even eat YOUR share yesterday , so why don't YOU eat the bloody vegetables ? ) Tell EF to shut up somemore . You should be heaving a sigh of relief that she hasn't yet walked out of this house . Don't you dare take advantage of other's soft side . Wake up your bloody idea because if you think everyone is afraid of you , you're wrong .

After school went to j8 to shopshop with dq and i got my red m)phosis tank . Lost a lot of calories from three hours of brisk walking and playing adrenalin pumping PSP games lmao . Fried so many brain cells trying to think .

Time to mug hard for SS .

you're runnin' away cos' you know you can't hide

2009-08-04T05:54:00.000-07:00

Wow i look so nice and happy and fat in the picture .

Eyes have been giving me a lotta problem recently , swollen and shit . Very uncomf i assure you .

Height and weight measurement . I grew 1cm hor don't play play LOL . Had a lot of fun with 'burst' today . Spent chinese revising for chemistry . Chem test was shitttttttttttttttt .

Now there's no SS test tomorrow . What the hell whyyyyy i wanted to get this week's test all done and over with . And then there's expo test tmr hate hate hate .

I've got totally no mood for tests and studying and stuff . Bleeeauggh . I want to sleep naoz

our lips were cold as clay , we couldn't speak anyway

2009-08-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

Hai . Something totally stupid happened and i felt so irritated but now it's okay . I want to thank my mom though for unintentionally making things worse .

It's already on my facebook status and whatnot but i'll elaborate . I came back from choir , tired , dying etc. Then i wanted to sit down but there was this bag of garbage on my chair . Then i was like ' eh ? ' so i just put it into the bin . Then later i came home after dinner wanting to study chem and do some work in the chem 10 years series . I realised that all my three science ten years series that i only bought recently disappeared like poof . Thus , there can only be one reason and we concluded that my grandma threw it away instead of the garbage . ( it was still in the popular bag ) Best . Win already . Inside got three heavy books also not a clue in the world .

Then my dad went to fly to popular to buy again . Stupid stupid waste my stupid money and time and shit . And i hate it when it's so bloody obvious and people still act one blur . I mean, otherwise what ? It grew a pair of legs and walked out ? Ha. Ha .

A couple years back i remember school was going to start and i had bought all my new books . The minute i put them within one metre of the dustbin it's gone . Gone down the dayumn rubbish chute .

Ugh i feel so zz-ed .

Have been studying for two hours straight . I know it's not long but it's been a while and i think imma short circuit soon . Energy sapping lessons + choir without lunch + stupid shit throw away my books thing .

WHY .

i try to laugh but cry instead, patiently wait to hear the words you've never said

2009-08-02T06:59:00.005-07:00

My computah suffers from what i call sudden lag attacks . So , so annoying .

I'm having a headache from studying atmosphere :(

These few weeks i keep feeling like puking , but i never actually do puke. I wish i would actually throw up though . That way my mom will actually believe that i'm not feeling well instead of thinking that i'm just trying to slack off again ( i can tell from her skeptical look k )

Woke up and aunt sent me to j8 before they went to church so i could get breakfast . YAY i have a laksa partner today ( YAYLAKSAWOOO ) - Alvin ! Who woke up to eat laska then went home then came to zion -_-" But i got my laksa , yeah ! ^^ v TYVM .

Nursery duty today was terrrible omg . I even sustained injuries :(

Aidan almost ripped my levi's watch apart , smelt me , bit my leg ( dont ask ) and pinched my arms and damn did he pinch hard . Faggggg pain until my skin came off also .

& Aud was busy running away from the girl who keeps touching her HAHAHA .

Anyway Kenan is the cutest everrrrrrrr . (Y)

Slept for 1.5 hours today after shopping @ daiso (L) :D I think i can shop at daiso for hours. I got some random stuff and my fav. prawn crackers & i'm going to try putting shiny stuff on my phone though they just get so damn bloody big at daiso . Hate it . Bought chem 10yearsseries and had to lug home another three books thanks to a certain someone .

Now i've been mugging for a while and i am fully aware of how short my attention span is so i shall stop yay :D

p/s crap there's going to be assembly .

the city looks so nice from here , pity i can't see it clearly

while you're standing there it disappears , it disappears ;

How long am I gonna’ stand, with my head stuck under the sand?

2009-08-01T09:20:00.000-07:00

( SERIOUSLY why is the pickcha quality so terrible )

It's past midnight already . And i should be sleeping because i have to go to church myself again tmr . PLUS i'm going to get my long awaited laksa @ toastbox ( happyyy )

I don't think i can fall asleep though .

Feels like insomnia ah ah , feels like insomnia ah ah.

Okay sorry . The weather was awesome so i slept for like 2.5 hours in the afternoon after piano , then i did all my tuition homework ( BEEEEAMZ ) I feel so contented bwaha .

Tomorrow is a studying day . Chem and SS . Luckily for me , there is no bio on monday , means i don't need to cram so hard.

Note-to-self : Get Chem ten years series

Imma' go nowww.

I'll be the witness in the silences when words are not enough,

2009-07-31T07:14:00.000-07:00

Happy Six-hundredth .

Today was nice . School was alright, went out with audrey after . Met at hub and had our long awaited NYNY :) Chatted and then headed to causeway . So stupid had to carry loads of books - chem and bio text , and others . Walked around and looked for presents then we couldn't find lol but i bought some lousy black polish lol (: Chillaxed @ Mac then went back .

Supposedly four tests coming up next week - Bio on monday (?) , chem on tues , ss on weds and expo writing test at some unknown date . Hardcore mugging needed over this weekend but hell i got so many stupid things . No time, no mood , no shit . I don't know if i can do this :(

Crammmmm . Tomorrow is the usual dreaded saturday . Tuition and piano , going to get pwned again sigh . I hate routines .

I want to getttt out of this . I want to shoppp i want to take long afternoon naps and all that slackshit stuff . But grades , argh . I failed my Amath by the way . That only means i have to ace everything else ( cue to laugh ) . But what's the point ? Parents only look at what they want to anyway . Poke at my bad points . Go ahead and overlook all that i've done right .

I'm slowly trying to redeem myself . At least i haven't been sent to the Neoclub yet , and i have to start worrying cos leow is meaning to send people into hw club and mdmtey is going to fine me again and after this i swear i'm not going to be split up by anyone anymore. Despite all this shzt i think i have good teachers ( except chinese naturally ) Thumbzup.

Here we go, it's gonna be a long day .

When it get cold outside and you got nobody to love

2009-07-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

Have been digging through old pictures every day . So much memories , and so much i didn't treasure back then . So preoccupied . I remember those nights, and i feel v blessed to have had awesome people around me (:

What can i say ? Sometimes i wonder if i could have made a better decision , and if i have a right to say anything about it at all . I used to ask myself so many questions but now there is no need for that .

Get up and get going (:

But how long must i wait ?

Today was cool . Lessons were fine . Wanted to go paragon to find my mom but decided against it because i started feeling sick . Slept . No shopping for this sad girl . Man , lol .

Is there anyone out there ,

cos' it's getting harder and harder to breathe ;

What can i do to make you care?

2009-07-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

( lol at audrey x 2 )

Sec one and now .

Why is the picture so grainy !

Today was quite alright . There was bio SPA , first time individual work i think it was quite fun . During almost all lessons i was trying to chiong mdm neo's homeworks . I did some homework today and last night . Awesome, now i owe her a gazillion minus three pieces of homework . I think that's good enough , i shall slowly repay my debts .

Napfa five items today was a beach . After that went pasar malam with vic and ate lots of stuff again and coconut :] Then took a bus to tuition there .

I miss pepper lunch , and kbox and going out and shopping and concerts and ikea and excursions and i think i need a haircut . And actually i just wanna go to sleep, forget everything and pretend nothing ever happened.

daiqian & siying , take care :B

Cherry blossoms are beautiful when they're out , but also so beautiful when they're falling

2009-07-28T05:35:00.000-07:00

Hlo , short update .

- Mr Su is leaving :/

- Got pwned by mdm neo , owe her gazillion pieces of homework , ezlink going to get confiscated . Got split up from dq

( why am i always getting split up from people )

- Subwayd w dq

- Chem SPA-ed .

- Pasar malam with damian and yanting ( taiwan sausage & coconut ! ) (Y)

- Pwned for 5 items tmr

- NYNY with aud @ friday (alas)

Smile . I put a nice one on today . Surprised myself . Time grabs you by the wrists and directs you where to go .

Losers just binge and go on with life .

Standing no chance to win but

we're not running, we're not running .

Can you give me a reason for coming out of the closet ?

2009-07-27T05:49:00.000-07:00

Do you know why they say ignorance is bliss ? Because sometimes the truth hurts so bad, so bad . A cut so deep it can't be stitched closed . Bleed. Let yourself run dry because so what ? It never meant anything . Nothing .

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels.

To take it all away

2009-07-26T05:24:00.001-07:00

Phayled attempt to replicate previous second post picture , lol . Why so bright !

Today was alright . I didn't feel like getting up today, but i did anyway . Prepped and went to church myself , stopped by J8 to get milo thick toast from Toastbox ( thumbz upz )! Nice . Waited for bus and reached YD late . Had YD laughed a bit , then went to get bubble tea :D After that we were late for service (oops.) So we went up to wait and blah blah went in .

Anyway later went for nursery duty and aud was there alr . Aidan kept on smelling us hahaha v weird and pinching me and stuff . Kirsten keep taking off my ring -.- Anyway they are all so cute :D I don't want them to grad and go kindergarten .. LOL. Then he started breaking the colour pencil leads so i had to scold but obviously nobody listens to me . ( points to pile of lead and inserts angelic face )

Aidan unscrews the colouring crayon until the lead stuck out real long

" Aidan , don't make it so long . When you colour it will break , okay ? "

* Forcefully breaks lead into half*

"-_-"

Kids nowadays..

A couple of weeks ago, nightmares were imminent whenever i went to sleep . After some time they went away themselves . However, these few days i've been having dreams that are neither monster-zombie-shit scary or a garden of flowers . I don't know, i get scared in the dream but it's just different . It's sad . And i find myself wanting to cry when i wake up . Which is v stupid but hell it's like that . I don't like .

To make a long story short , I was in this company and i somehow knew everyone and everything about them . Suddenly my friend just collapsed. Then i had this rather short bench and tried to get her to lie on it but she was too long (?) And she told me she couldn't bend her legs . After that i went out to get something but when i came back in the whole place was pitch black . It was like an office building like that , corridor after corridor totally dark . I ran and called her name and she shouted "yes!" back but she was so far away and i didn't know where i was going .

Then i was running and i saw the silouhette of a little boy and immediately something in me clicked and i knew i had to get him out of here. So i carried him and he fainted in my arms and we ran ..... and then i met another smaller boy and carried him also . The smaller boy kept on talking and talking , saying that his sister had a chinese name and brown hair . It was almost like a game of cluedo . And i could feel like someone had to be chasing us and i was damn frightened. Then i saw light and there was this way out idk why but outside was like the markets in India ( remember the mastercard advert starring Richard Gere? ) Even though i thought at the last second someone would grab me , i just jumped out ( and no one did ) and woke up .

It doesn't sound like much , i know . But the fear was there, honest :(

Owell :) I feel better after saying it out now .

Oh yes went to j8 crystal jade for lunch and bought ten years series for some subs . Then was supposed to buy sandals cos my other one going to break already. Then you know what i HATE HATE HATE HATE being rushed when i shop and everytime i'm being rushed when i go with my aunt . So. Annoying . I almost throw tantrum but decided not to O:

HAHA .

Okay i'm going to study for Chem SPA and EM TOOODLZ.

Climb up from the bottom for the last time,

2009-07-25T08:52:00.001-07:00

I keep looking at my old pictures and i realised i look really stupid last time :( Not to mention when i when decided to chop my hair off last february . BIGMISTAKEYO . Then i feel like spamming my old retarded pictures here but ... must save some face la hor , next time :)

Today is saturday so it's supposed to suck big time . After i came back from piano i had to prep and then go for my cousin's church performance thing at very very far away like bukit panjang . There were silly games , hilarious skits and a lot of damn good singing . Then the last act was performed by my cousins who were the 2 main characters .

It was realllly good (Y) . It was a silent act i think , they were dancing and acting stuff out with the music . It depicted this girl and God being happy and contented and all , and then along comes the devil , separating them . Then this girl goes through a lot of temptation and unacceptance and basically it was quite saddening :( Then this guy ask her to hang herself and the evil people were all trying to block her from 'Jesus' and he was trying to call her back . Then she broke free and ran toward him but the evil people kept dragging her back ( it was damn terrible omg ) then 'Jesus' took the beatings for her or something and they were reconciled :)

I cried LOL.

Thumbs up .

Screw ant backside manzx . They are starting to invade my desk again , i hate it i absolutely hate hate hate hate it .

Oh shucks Emath test on monday ( faint ) And chem SPA on tuesday . I scared :( Oh yeah that day i was on MC then i went back for chem spa trial and then fainted afterwards - i ended up failing that one ._.

So i feel supa louseeee, must do better !!

Okay there's church & todz tmr , bye :B

Unwanted clemency

2009-07-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

Yo . Was digging up old pictures ! I took that long long ago like long ago last year or maybe sec one , hmm . Back when i used to have lotsa fun with the webcam , HAHA . Last night i was like super irritable i think it might have been because i only had 3 hours of sleep the previous night , pathetic mucho .

Today i felt like i didn't sleep at night at all . I slept for the longest time ever during math , most of the time i don't dare . But it was a real good sleep and i wasn't so sleepy for phy/chem . Then we had tingxie and compo writing for chinese and the very kp teacher accused us (/vic) of cheating ( I DIAO YOU K ) Retarded to the max pl0x , do we really look like we need to cheat for your tingxie which you tested us twice already and it's not even hard anymore. And she accused us cos we were trying to chiong her compo . Win already lor she .

2.4 run today . I wasn't really feeling my best i thought i would faint/puke/stitches/other horrible stuff . Plus i drank ( insert thing ) and it was gross . Nevertheless i survived it ^^V Haha , but i still don't know if i passed or not . ( insert skeptical look )

After that mz wasn't feeling well so waited for her to feel better then we went back to school . Ryan treat us icecream yay it was yummy .

Went back for choir and ms chai was there. Sang a while only then dismissed alreadyyyyy . Slacked a bit , bought a coooookie ( which i just finished, yum ) and went home :D

I feel like a fat pig shit because i ate so much rubbish today . And my legs hurt from running :(

And i am so , so tired i could plop on the bed nao .

Toodlz ^^/

p/s. Many many thanks to seri for fixing up my blogskin , appreciate it loads. Read her post where she sells herself on the previous entry :D

Hearts on Fire

2009-07-24T05:54:00.000-07:00

Hello, of course I'm not Carey because Carey don't type this way.

But anyhoo, you readers comfortable with the navigations and blog space now? Hee, trust IE to give so much trouble to you guys.

So just one thing, use Chrome cos it's proven to be faster. Hee.

Okay, so I'm the mysterious blogger in backwardsideways who helped Carey edit her template. Hahaha. If you need any help in coding (I don't really write templates), tag this blog with your email address and url! I'll do my best to help you guys! (I'm a semi noob coding person so don't expect too much!)

Mucho love,

S Aryn. :)

I'll tear you down

2009-07-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

Everyone's going like , BLOGGERS SCREWED but i'm glad i can post just fine teehee . Yeah i know there is some problem with this skin like it can't be navigated in IE and if you're using Chrome like me it will like scroll onto the navi bar or something but nevermind la . So just don't use IE if you can help it , I'm not sure about MF but Chrome's not too badddd . STUPID NICE SKIN.

I'm waiting for seri to come online so i can consult her >)

Today is an angry day . I'm not too sure why but i'm pretty sure there are a lotta reasons . Maybe cos my table got split up during bio class , though idk why but i don't really mind like whatevr lollllll it might not be a bad thing . Then i suddenly thought of how i might have to pay my phys teacher money AGAIN for not bringing things. It's so stupid . And this month my dad didn't give me money and he doesn't know ! And i don't want to tell him cos he sounds like he v tight and he's paying for my math tuition which i don't even wanna go to .

And then my chinese teacher come and give me attitude and everything . Furthermore, you know how my class is , yet i was doing my work lor . I ask one question she have to suan and give black face then she go in front and smile at the other people . Biased like shit . W/e .

But later it was okay went to talk to mz , bei , omar and some others at 3/5 . Tio suaned by gladwin until my back got many knives sticking out . :(

Went to buy present later and ate subway and gossiped O:

I accidentally ordered double meat , extra bacon and extra cheese cost me a bomb ( HAHA RIGHT ) and i was broke lor. Stupid subway workers who talk so damn bloody fast .

I suddenly thought of the people i partially disliked and sort of for almost no reason ( or maybe a little ) at all . Don't know why it's making me sicccccck in the stomach thinking about it i feel so pissed offfffffff . And my mom koped my tv AGAIN unintentionally but i'm still angry. I also got attacked by a beetle i hate it.

Speaking of attacked , i got attacked yesterday by the very kind two people who sit on both sides of me in class . With a penknife and i screamed and yelled and ran when the principal came in and she kept smiling at me what the hell so embarrassed :/

Listen to my blogsong , i like it (:

Audrey sent it to me ages ago but i only liked it now haha . Sidewinder by A7x , enjoy.

Ciao

p/s. Everyone's being such anal shit today . PMS go away , come again another day .

Can't you feel the poison rising , straight to the heart from the venomous bite ?

twisted lies

2009-07-21T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hello !

Today was 3/3 outing to Seoul Garden @ causeway. I think i should be glad i went even though part of me thinks that i should have stayed home and slept like the peeeg i am . Nevermind i give victoria face seeing how desperate she always is (:

I did something really stupid . Cos last minute decided to meet damian on the train then when i reached platform i automatically went to the marina bay side . ( I mean heck either go bishan or town or something hardly go north whatttt RIGHT )

So we were supposed to meet on the last cabin of the jurong east side and i was at the last cabin of the marina bay side MEANING we were at two entirely different ends ._. Which was so stupid of me . Met Damian Gerald and Jaini on the train . In the end we were half an hour late but also thanks to damian cos he was late in the first place !!

Anyway i sat at a table where the rest were all seoul garden noobs o: All never go before . Then gerald made the quite phayled egg with chicken thing , and damian tried to fry egg but ....

Anyway gossiping was damn funny haha . " So its a bun la " haha ! Ate a lot of meat and shit then later Jay and i went to cold storage to get peach shandy - nice ! Walked around and went back then everyone leaving alr .

So , we lagged a bit then went to play arcade . YAY air hockey-ed with damian even though i got pwned like madcrazy then we went t play bball and Daytona :D I think the machines suck haha. I was 2nd lor then suddenly i flip for no reason then i became 4th , boooo . Played the picking up soft toys and sweets game , & laughed at the stupid shaking claws .

Escaped vic's clutches and went home alone .

So tired .

I just ate a nice egg tart ( happy face )

I shall go sleep soooooooooon yay .

'Picturesque.

2009-07-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

Blog's becoming wordy ain't it . Everyone says the font too small but i like it so toooo bad (evilsmirk) deal with it . K i haven't uploaded pictures from my handphone in ages so here we go some of the photos are from ancient times :)

( the last pic is for aud . Just for you >:) )

freshh

2009-07-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

I keep posting with Picasa i don't even know if blogger's okay already .

I've taken to writing my homework on my arm . I think it actually works even though i hardly look at it ! I think that it ( along with various toxic chemicals ) diffuses to my head after a while (: But my mom doesn't like me to ink myself she said it was a tattoo , muahaha .

Okay so today was an unsignificant day at school . Leow is not back :( And i was in a bad mood sort cos it's Friday (sigh) and i think my chinese teacher hates me but who cares . I got kidnapped by Victoria after school and i got my snow frost thang ! Then along comes audrey and she pretended to talk and ask me questions while she koped my food . So smart !

So i came home and watched Hayate , the Combat Butler :D Then i went to sleep at 4 . I think time passes so fast when you sleep , i don't like it :( Then vic started talking to me on msn and the sound irritated me so i told her to go away lol . Then in an instant it was 6 already then my mom called me like 4-5 times don't-know-why . I was so pissed off okay then i couldn't sleep . Then my grandma's friend also called so i had to go out and pass the phone . Ugh , why can't yall leave me alone . So i slept till 8 . ( Contented face )

I sleep so much nowadays it's hard to imagine i was once so very deprived . :(
And don't know why but still got dark eye ring leh . (N)

Yay i'm starting to watch TV okay . I have a life hor i don't Facebook my life away like YOU PEOPLE . Especially the people who kept buying me back and forth. ( ahem damian and kayhwee ) A lot money hor . 9-10 TV time :D On animax hoho .

Oh anywayz . Thursday was Bukit Timah excursion it was so nice i like :B Maybe because i didn't see any snakes or forest cockroaches or flatworms or millipedes or termites or whatever disgusting shitz . But then this bee was levitating around us and it scared me and jaini ( again , sigh ) . The woman so funny haha " please talk in whispels " " we saw some spidels " HAHA . And the man who scared the tree branch drop .

The walking was bad it was so darn steep and i was afraid to roll down the cliff . So sad to leave , awwww . I like my airplant thang i'm going to name it ...
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. ( wait for it ! ) Haha daiqian !!
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Jubjub

o: Just kidding , i haven't thought of a name yet . Well heck i'll just go with jubjub :)

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Okay so what am i gonna do on tuesday ?
And RHD catwalk shit ( with pohseng -_- ) Omar i need the costume okay plz x 1000000 .

Gone . Just like you are .

it hurts like sheetz

2009-07-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

Hi keedz . I'm at home again while y'all are in school slogging your happy butts off .
Sore throat :( So yesterday i went to school and problem after problem arised so i popped a lotta pills but didn't get any better . I watched clique eat their yummy indian curry rice stuff while i was eating porridge ( and it hurt a lot alr ) . So i chionged home afr school in one piece cos i was like having flu the whole day and i sorta ran outta tissue anyway.

Then i went to my favourite doctor last night . FINALLY a doctor with some sense to prescribe antibiotics . And my mom is weird cos she started asking a lot of stupid questions just to delay the time cos the previous person took very long and she was pissed -.- Anyway . She gave me an MC and stuff then i went home and watched Samurai x on tv ( I have Animax nao !! :D ) But actually watched before alr oh well .

Then she was like damn anal and all she was looking for a disappeared receipt to claim some stupid money and she was being all beeeeetchy and stuff . So annoying like hellz so i went to sleep .

Today . I don't know what is wrong with my family . My mom and grandma keep telling me to eat bread . Like what the freaking hell í am not going to freaking eat bread okay you have no idea how asskicking painful it is to swallow saliva much less bread . I settled with oats .

Now i have to take my meds and then maybe go back to sleep . Sucks that i have to go for SPA Trial later but luckily it's at four plus yay .

It hurts like sheeeeeeeeeet i feel like my oesophagus got pushed off a cliff and everytime i swallow it's like sticking it into a meat-mincer . Omg morbid much ?

KBYEZ

feeever.

2009-07-09T20:49:00.000-07:00

Hi blog .it's 1145 and i'm @ home .

Right now my health is at is best ( though not recovered ) I just woke up from 1 hour long nap after eating medicine and the fever has gone down i suppose. Okay wth my thermometre says 39.5 HAHA i think it's lying to me cos i'm eating hot fish porridge . Ok let me try again . Okay now it's 39.0 but i think it's still lying to me though cos i feel tons better compared to when i woke up .( 38.7 )

So yesterday i had siying over to do stupid things . We had planned doing something but ended up stalking people online. HAHA . & i was sniffing and sneezing all the time , i hope siying's really okay lol . So i slept at like 930 cos the flu was really getting to me . I dreamt of really weird things i think . I dreamt that carol aud and i were taking an empty train and we got off at some really dark place and it was a road and we just kept walking and talking ( i think ) It's like never ending or sth .
It's funny cos during dinner i asked my dad what a fever dream was and i ended up experiencing it myself . Or at least i think so .

Yeah so i woke up at 2 and i knew i had a fever . ( i used to have fever countless times in primary school esp at night ) I never had a fever like this since secodary school ( I suppose ) . So then i went to tell my parents and then the sponging stuff began then my dad was like EH 39 IS VERY HIGH . GO SEE DOCTOR . So we went searching for 24 hour docters and i almost died cos my parents are really stubborn .

They took me to thomson but it wasn't 24h . Then i told them amk have because i went before but they didn't believe me so they brought me all the way to yishun . The trip was long and terrible . Then i only saw the doc for less than a minute and they had to pay 100 + . Like what the hell and the doc was like " OK. No big deal ". Then finish already .

Then in the morning l ike 7 , my temp had gone down to 37.5 and then when i woke at 930 it went up again .

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Gah i want to go to school . Lucky no need to have sectionals if not i don't know if i should go after school or not . If i don't recover fast i might not even be able to go for Cantemus :(

Bodyache. Argh .
Okay gone ! :)

p/s . cool siol my picha blends in with the background

again ?

2009-07-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

Gosh i'm reaaaaally tired . I convinced myself that my nightmares come whenever i take naps in the afternoon . It happened twice i think but i can't really be sure . Better safe than sorry , which is why i can totally hit the bed right now but it's only 2230 and my biological clock says no .

Since i changed my specs to the current one , two people have been like asking me since when had i started wearing spectacles .
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err how about since i was 10 .

Err okay so i was just going to talk about how shittt my life is sometimes . I wished i lived alone . Or not , but you get the idea . I just don't like the atmosphere over here . I figure that's why i'm always behind closed doors in my room . I'd lock it too , if my door lock wasn't spoilt since eons ago . Whatever , i think life could and should be better .

Anyho , school's good :) The scholars are back and they brought back China food like dried beef cubes (L) omg and dried fish and whatnot . I friggin' ate eight cubes and five dried fish i wan tu go tu cheena naozx .
& mdm neo treated the whole 3/3 ice cream , she's #1 man (Y) !!

We have this sub teacher for chemistry cos leow's gone someplace . His jokes take us all the way to the North Pole . Anyway the mole is so confusing we were all losing hair over it because we couldn't understand shit . But , it's alright . I just hope leow comes back for SPA trial and stuff .

Oh and i'm starting to get picked on again . What did i do that other's didn't do ? I don't need the extra attention tyvm .

What now what now what now what now what now ?

what i thought was a dream , was as real as it seemed

2009-07-05T22:59:00.000-07:00

Sigh . One of the only things i look forward to everyday is the time i go to bed and get a good sleep . Now i can't even have that . I've had some really terrible nightmares of late . Last night i went to bed at like 130 and by 147 i woke up from my 3rd/4th nightmare .

Three nights ago i was lucid dreaming. i dreamt of some monstrous creatures . It had this gigantic hole with gazillion teeth which was it's mouth and it was like pinning me on my bed and i was struggling . I tried to move my real body but i couldn't ( cos i was asleep ) then this grim reaper like thing was floating by and saying something about 'evil', 'hungry' and 'eating' . then i forced myself to wake up . And then subsequently there were a few more nightmares which i can't remember .

Then last night i dreamt that i was in this run down room . And a short haired woman appeared wearing a surgical mask and a nurse's hat . She was holding this big stapler and stapling the cupboard (?) then suddenly the stapler was gone so she became this i-can-stapler-gigantic-bullets-with-my-hands monster . And because i hate sharp objects i was trying to get away from her . Then i came to this door which was half open and i had to get past it . Then this greenish hand or something was coming through the opening . Cos i decided i didn't want to stay to see what it was , i forced myself awake again .

THEN i fell asleep again . This time i was in my room and it was dark . I was humming or saying something , and then an eerier , tinier and more evil version of the voice would follow after . So i got up and asked " Who's copying me ? " But there was no one there , then i realised that it was myself . Then idk why but i touched my ears and it felt like my eardrums were exploding and my ears were bleeding . Then i was like totally freaked out and i woke myself up again .

Then i called bro , then i went over to sleep with my mom ._.
After another half hour then i fell asleep .

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It's a bad sign . I think something bad is going to happen soon . In fact, i already know what it is , and it sucks to feel helpless and to just sit here and wait for it . I wish i could reverse it and not say the things i said . Maybe if i didn't open my big mouth , she wouldn't remember , she wouldn't cry all the time and maybe i would have been happy .

I'm just a sitting duck right now .

2009-07-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

Bad blogger . I'm uploading pictures via Picasa cos blogger screwed up on me and i can't do a lot a once ( i think ) .

Anyway my dragonbean plant is dying . It grew up to .. 30+30+30+28 = 118cm . It was like creeping up my window sill , quite cool but now it's dying seemingly because i only failed to water it once . No amount of water can save it now :c

Today's sunday so i went to church and then the YD chers didn't come , so we were all taking groupshots and stuff in class , fun :> Waiting to see if i can get the pictures from rishon though i have a few . After that walked with carol to 7-11 and talked and ate pizza .

Today, i was back at the nursery for this quarter and, well the kids have changed A LOT ( though generally the same bunch , i like ) I really wonder what they've been eating. Maybe drugs or something . Madness. First day on the job and i was just sitting there then this girl called Lauren jumped onto my back or something and wouldn't get off and boy , was she heavy. And i couldn't just stand cos i scared she fall and Audrey was like "Lauren hug her !! " . i owe you big time :) Then this other girl was like having sugar rush , keep jumping around and grabbing our hands or something . And hugging my legs ( cos they can only reach until there haha ) which was kind of weird .

Oh and they started to smell me . And it was really . really . weird .
What are parents feeding their kids ?

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Got to indulge yesterday :)
Indulging in nice food even though i'm flat broke already . Smart ain't we .
Mingzhen , OKOK DAISY ALRIGHT lol so embarrassing . It looked like a sunflower whaaaaat >)
It happens that every night before i go to sleep i will click gladwins blog and then got this ayah see for yourself .

Oh yeah i had nightmares two nights ago and i was really really scared . Is it possible to feel pain in your dreams ? 'Cos i thought i did .

And .
Girl be strong , kay ! Where there is love , there is pain . We all love you v mucho :D

Gone !

a taste of perfection

2009-07-03T02:02:00.000-07:00

Friday again . Oh, dreadful Friday . It makes me sick to think that Saturday is just tomorrow . Because i've been way too caught up with SYF combi choir thing and homework ( yeah as if ) , i didn't give two hoots about my tuition homework and practising piano . DIE .

Um okay welllllll . I initially intended to come right back home after school and sleep for as long as i'd like but in the end went with bei and gang to eat sumo and bought stationery and stuff @ popular before coming back and it's already 445 . Still wondering how i spent 3+ hours doing all that .

July 2nd ( SYF combined choir thing )

After school , i had prata (Y) !! With dq :) Then later we talked serious o: And i went to find jinhu and we walked with jess to mrt and trained down to raffles and to vch . Changed and stuff then went to have rehearsal until my feet got totally pwned by the heels and i was dying . Then we got to have a pretty long break and a pathetic dinner aka sandwiches .

Jh was extra sociable that day and kept running all over the place and i had to follow him with heels and climb a crazy many flights of stairs and was dying again . I put on make up at the fountain O:

Made a couple friends over these four days , from scgs , xinmin and stnicks . Nice people , but i wasn't too sociable unlike somebody (o:) I learned a lot of things . Like how to actually tie a tie ( AND IT WAS NOT BAD ) and never to listen to jinhu's hair advice . (o:)
Rehearsed somemore . Then went out for White Horses , which was just okay i think . Nervous , and the curve wasn't even a curve . But that's okay . We also went down the wrong side of the stage lol . That's okay too .

Went back and waited for 1+ hours . Did 2 physics worksheets with the help of jh and his worksheet (: Tq . Rehearsed AGAIN then went up for Singaporean Medley which was quite good even though i forgot a bit of lyrics somewhere along th way . Found mz and co . at the back ! Took some pictures with that terrible hair then exchanged a couple of contacts, changed and left . Saw ms chai too .
Thanks for the sunflower !!!! ( it's a sunflower right ) So prrrtty haha !
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There was a scary sound during chem today . It sounded like cats in labour . I payed attention in most lessons ( okay maybe not that much attention ) . And i was worried .

Where is the love ? Y

wake from this dream

2009-06-30T04:51:00.000-07:00

All that's left of yesterday

2009-06-29T01:35:00.000-07:00

Hello .

My ears hurt because of my new specs . I think they're too tight or something . First day of school was really long and there was some timetable confusion and two bio lessons killlllls . Especially because this ultragigantic wasp was flying around so jaini and i screamed ( shrieked , rather ) and ran outside a couple of times .

Anyway yesterday went for church and then later had to rush to city hall but no one was there yet o: So i found dq then we went to eat and then sy and py came . I think siying was off medication or sth , she kept pulling me to hide behind shrubs and pretend to camouflage -.- After lunch we mrted to marina and shuttle bussed to barrage .

Found a shady spot and parked there :) Went to fly kiteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!! (L) It was quite stupid trying to throw up the kite and all but it flew anyway :) Later pei and i sat in the shade and talked about the past and the present . Then all four of us sat and talked about a lot of stuff . Most of the time siying was just busy shouting my name and my phone number . Ate sushi , chips and gummies :D & then we were seriously dehydrated & pei's kite spoiled & we spend 15 minutes in the sun trying to untangle kite string to no avail .

So we left at about 5 + and walked the gallery . There was this really freaky place where the floor was transparent omg and it was really scary. Saw a real life gabion ! O:

Damn tired while going home . Clique picnic finally happened !!! O:

I hate school i don't want to go to school . Spent the whole holiday doing everything but homework so now i have to pay the price for that BUT i don't want to :(

Suckage . 100+ physics mcqs , so many chem ws , one stack of geog , 2 math online assignments , some idk what bio things , retarded english essay and compre . My grey hair all coming out already .

& tmr have to go CCAB again . Stewwwwwwwwwwwwpid .

i can't quite figure out

2009-06-22T05:34:00.000-07:00

Helllllow.

Choir today wasn't as bad as predicted ! Seems like mingzhen's and my premonition was wrong after all . Choir went okay .. A Capella group is going to form again ! ( mixed feelings .. ) lol.

After choir , hung around for a bit attempting to play lighthouse on the piano . Then later tried to help bei memorize song lyrics while walking to hub . @ hub bei , mz , sm , jh , bj , gladwin and i , decided to watch drag me to hell . Don't know if it was a good decision or not . Bought subway then smugged into theatre .

Sicccccccck show . Damn sick . And scary and freaky . I think i was either not looking at the screen / covering my eyes / covering my ears for half of the entire movie . Stupid old lady . I hate the suddenly pop out of nowhere idea .

It's like .

POP ! Old lady appears and freaks everybody out .

Anyway i wouldn't say it wasn't nice . I want to watch a show like .. Constantine ! :O
Then bei was all like , LETS WATCH THE HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT . Another horrorrrrr movie :( I don't like .

Anyways. There's bio spa dnowhat tomorrow and i haven't cleared my CWO cos i totally totally forgot about it. Not that i really care lor , what a waste of time .

I want to do quizzes . Can someone tag me to do quizzes .

Gone .

Resurrect

2009-06-21T19:19:00.000-07:00

I .. have .. finally found the strength to blog !! I blogged exactly a week ago , and the past week has been quite alright .

Tuesday went out with sammo to watch Dance Subaru . Met @ somerset then went to buy tix at cine . then trained to FEP and shopped until we lost track of time ._. then flew back to cine to catch movie . After that we went back to FEP and sam bought a lot of thingsssssssssss O: Under the influence of Yours Truly, sam bought a skirt and dress/blouse ( which i had to buy off her later -.- ) OKAY .

Wednesday i stayed at home all day ( is that right? ) Actually i have no clue cos i forgot already . I think so , because i finished my tuition homework in the afternoon ( it took me three hours ok ) Then went for chi tuition

Thursday went to Aud's house to find her . Then we went to Ms Clarity's !! ! :D And actually the food is darn good but somebody didn't think so because there were idk , mushrooms and potatoes ? Okay maybe the coke float sucked . Haha then something very funny happened . Cos there was also this rotten-looking half a tomato on the plate facing down . So it looked like one mound of red stuff . Then aftrward i saw audrey stroking her potato on it . ( LMAO )

"Audrey . That's a tomato "

" O_O "

Not ketchup !!! LOL . damn funny .

Then she brought me to Thomson CC to the lan shop ( O: !!! ) then i played my first game of l4d which was quite fun except the zombies were damn freaky and i even dreamt of it .

Friday was CCA day . Had choir which was ook . Then we played games !!! :D Which everyone thought was lame and wouldn't cooperate but later when they finally did they ENJOYED THEMSELVES ( RIGHT ) . Cough. See la you guys should have settled down faster , make me scream like a crazy woman O:

After choir went with bei to FEP . On the way there we got conned by some stupid old man at orchard mrt . Dno what
" that's a business handshake !"

" thanks for that smile ! "

Then he speedtalked about some business and some pens then later he said " so will that be 4, 6, or 10 dollars :) "

So in the end we gave him 4 each . (@*&#@%^%#!

then we were both damn pissed and bei kept talking about how to reject him.

Then later we decided to go bugis to find our bagszx . Then we bought bei and mz's bags and then i got scammed again because i thought the bag i wanted was 15 but then they said 25 .

So after that we were dead broke . Both of us had 4 dollars left and it was 3 o clock and i hadn't eaten anything since 8 . Then we couldn't find anything to eat cos we were that broke . Oh , how we hated the number 4 .

So later i bought meesua and old chang kee and went home to eat .

On the way home we actually contemplated the fact that today was a dream cos we were just so damn suay . It was so funny talking about it and telling each other all the weird stuff that might make today seem to be a dream . Like moths , the lighting and stuff . LOL .

ANYWAYYYYYYYYYY then saturday was tuition day . had tuition and piano then went home . Ate jap :D

Sunday . Had YD and service . Aud was ushering o: Then later went off to amk lib to have lunch and read . ~~Idlewild , Edenborn , Everfree .~~ I finished the idlewild series alr !!! (:

There's choir later . And i got a badddd feeling about today. I'm being too dependent on others . I don't like the today-sure-kena-scolding feeling :(

Have . To . Pull . Through .

KBAI :>

FLICKERFLICKERFLICKER

2009-06-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hi .

It's a boring weeeeeeek . Except Thursday , date @ clarity with aud (Y) (:

Butttttttt i have completely nothing to do for tomorrow and weds . Don't want to stay at home don't want don't want don't want . I want to like catch muveeees / shop / read @ library (8D) / go for a walk / fly a kite /anything / ANYTHING / ANYTHING EXCEPT STAYING AT HOME .

I want out .

Quick . Yue me nao naonaonaonaonaonao .

Byebye .

Carey.

TRYTRYTRY

2009-06-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

I just realised that, with all the invisible issues trying to pick my brain apart, i probably never will post about Sister Island . Much, at least. So i'll give you what i've got .

Woke up at 430 and drove to some jetty place with my dad's fishing kaki. Took a dingy old boat to Sister Island which was adjacent to another island . Apparently the one we were on was the older sister and the other - the younger sister . eh ? The place was nice . Calm . Serene . Monkey infested . Home to millions of giganormous insects that come in many disturbing colours . Sat at the pavillion thingum to read for a while then mom and i went to the beach . It was still low tide in the morning so there were those muddy places at the coast . I found a lot of hermit crabs ( beams ) then i decided to pick one up not knowing it was actually a snail and freaked out . I like the beach .

Went back to have lunch and continue reading ( edenborn !! ) Then went down to the beach again and played with sand and water like a kid . You know . Digging holes, buiding mounds and the like . Then daddy came over to fish and caught cute fish . Later bathed then sat at the picnic table to each a lot of stuff , read and then fall asleep. Then went back and waited till 7 and boated home .

So it was like that . 12 hours in a deserted island being happy because i'd so much rather be there than at tuition . The end .

Why do cycles repeat themselves ?

I've made some decisions since Term 3 is starting pretty soon .

I'm going to :

- Actually focus during lessons . It's not too late to pick up the pieces yet .

- Actually do mdm neo's homework .

- Actually not fall asleep during english real lessons .

- Not try to sleep during math so victoria won't use her penknife on me .

- Find something that i can not dread math about.

- Not draw on tables and pay attention during bio so i don't get picked on anymore.

- Not give mdm lum a hard time. ( like i ever did -.- )

- Not sleep during physics ( it's the least i can do )

- Not sleep during chinese ( ha . ha . you . wish . )

- Be a good SL . ( plz? :c )

- Lay low .

I feel siccccck in the stomach . My mom loves to give me all the weird foods in the world , passing it off as just ' something with antioxidants ' . Screw antioxidants :( Especially in lemongrass - which i happen to be eating now . Which also happens to be coming out of my mouth instead of down my throat . MAJOR SICK EW @!@!^$@O^$*^

I'm really all for throwing up right now . I need something lipsmacking delicious like .. prata . Mutton curry would be soooo good right now .

OH and my mom said we'd go somewhere if i do well at the end of this year . And i shall ( i guess ) because apart from BRATISLAVA ( AHEM AHEM MUST GO YA ) i want to go to ...........

Maldives , Bali , Phuket .

or ..

Hongkong, Taipei , US ( O: )

I want to go somewhere with a beach and has good shopping. No . Not singapore . Our beach major sucks :(

Kbai gtg ! 8)

HIDEHIDEHIDE

2009-06-13T06:03:00.000-07:00

Hi . Super tired , just spent an entire day in some isolated island .

As much as i want to do it , i'd really rather not . Not because i don't feel like it, or because i just want to not want to , but because . Because everything on the whole gives me a bad feeling and I know i shouldn't . Someone or something's screwing with my head and it just confuses me more and more and i can't make up my mind because it sucks both ways .

Is it possible to become a better person by hurting someone else ?

I'm tired . As if spending a whole day in a quiet island thinking wasn't enough .

Freaking bangs make my face look damn fat . My tooth hurts . My hair is screwed .

I got no mood to post about Sister island today . Maybe a picture or two .

Bai .

Carey.

Cheese. Oh look at who's looking all happy .

PANICPANICPANIC

2009-06-12T00:42:00.000-07:00

I recently made a wrong decision in my life .

No , ~~i don't have bangs .~~ I don't have bangs, exactly . For one , my fringe is not straight, exactly . It's straight but wispy ( so the hairdresser says ) . I fully regret destroying myself . And this is exactly why i chose to cut now so that if it turns out like rubbish ( like this ) then i can let it grow out before school starts again . And for bangs it's waaaay to long lor . It's supposed to be side-parted but verrrry ugleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh . And the stupid woman go layer my hair again , pfffffft . Argh i'm upset because it feels vaguely like February last year ( if you remember the hair disaster ) where i had bangs which weren't supposed to be . That's why i put up a picture with a good hair moment .

ANYWAY there was choir today . It went well :D Then had comm meeting and lunch . Then walked and talked with jesssssss then later took a bus home .

Tomorrow . I'll be at Sister Island for the entire day . If it was any other day i would violently object to it , but since it's a Saturday - and you know how intensely i hate saturdays , I relented (: Yay that also means no math tuition and no piano . I have finally got a life .

OH YA a few days back my mom and i were talking about my math tuition . Okay so maybe she was the only one talking cos i was ignoring her on purpose . She asked me to sleep earlier on Friday night so i won't be tired for math tuition . OR do i not want to go tuition anymore .
Normally, that would be a better option . But then she said,
"If you don't want go tuition then daddy says he will teach you "
( pass out )

It's like that's totally not giving me any option at all can :(
Sigh i seriously wanted to speak up. It sucks okay how i don't get to choose at all .

My grandma is weird too . If i eat something she gives me then she will go around telling people that i love it . Then she will keep giving me the same food .

Sleepy :(
Gtg, i have to pack for tomorrow !

Carey.

Okay how about a little something to scare you .

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dang daddy is cuter than me HAHHAHA ( joke)

RUNRUNRUN

2009-06-10T18:03:00.000-07:00

( see how unclear my picture is here compared to at xanga )

I successfully spent two entire days sitting on the chair i'm sitting on now . However, i was unable to accomplish ANY work at all . Shit, i hate how i procrastinate .

I hate alarm clocks . They are damn annoying la . You're already awake when they start ringing ( sometimes i wake up one second before they go off , too ) and then just because you're that little bit slow, they start speeding up and beeping like mad crazy. BEEPBEEPBEPBEBEEPBEEBPEEBPEBBEEEP annoying .

Anyway so yesterday was super unproductive except i planned to watch Angels & Demons online cos my mom die die also don't want to let me watch ( plus the movie probably finished screening alr ) But then i ... started watching dc again . ( insert many dots ) And i took a nap from 2-5+ .

Going out later anyway :>

i learnt how to fold hearts from dq . And i bought the glossy glossy paper and it sucks cos it gives me a lot of problems . Dang .

Bored . Anyway gtg, i have to make my own lunch (: Steak !!! (L)

Carey.

SCREAMSCREAMSCREAM

2009-06-08T04:46:00.000-07:00

Screw it !!! I'm back !!!!

( disclaimer : truckloads of ranting ahead )

Camouflaged because it is a really stupid , pointless , meaningless bunch of words . You will totally highlight it and read it anyway , right ?

Omg i was slightly pissed off at xanga because of how they don't let me upload the pictures taken by my camera ( cos the file size is bigger ) and that really drove me nuts and as a result i can't have a cool blog with the .xanga.com behind which i think looks quite nice actually. Plus i really liked xanga themes . AND NOW i can have neither and it sucks because blogger skins are nowhere near xangas , i tell you , NO WHERE NEAR .

AND SEE the stupid picture is so small lah what the hell :(

I want xanga . I . Want . Xanga. Damnit .

Ayah since i'm back ( it still sucks ) i'm going to change the stupid url i can't stand it anymore and i don't know what to change to !! And this skin sucks too i have no time and like i said before skins for blogger cannot be compared to xanga themes okay !!!!!!

I haven't blogged for eternity . First week of June holidays are like over already it's really super fast and i haven't gone within a metres range from any homework. At all . Don't even plan to .

I wanted to write about stuff in point form but my fingers are itching from not blogging for almost a week already so here we go .

Math extra lessons were torturous . Yay, kinderjoy , tehbeng , bouncing birdman thingum ! Bought a lot of junk food and went home early ( cos everyone had hmt damn it ) to watch dc and stuff myself silly . IC making on the next day then went J8 with aru for a bit to shop . Ate mee sua :D and then went home .

Friday was math AGAIN and then went to read this nice book in the library then went for choir . Handover ceremony was quite .. strange . Don't know how to say it . Err , not quite what i expected it to be eh ?

But nevertheless, thanks Kelicia for the present , i like it a lot and i find it extremely meaningful but i had no idea you would collaborate with daiqian to get certain information ( ahem ahem ) . So crafty eh O:

Had a terrible saturday morning cos i was throwing tantrums once again ( see how much i hate saturdays ) went for tuition i hate it and then went for piano later . Came out and ( confidential information ) Then later very cool cos during dinner with my parents we met audrey and jiaxians family there too at some random kopitiam .

Sunday . Yesterday. There was YD outing and i totally forgot about it :x Oops, but anyway went to raffles city for lunch . Pepppppper lunch (L) Then later went to marina to bowl . At first i was like die also don't want . But then like Aud and Carol said, it turned out to be quite okay EXCEPTTTT THATTTT i had the ultimate lowest score of 30 ( lucky cos it was 16 for quite a while ) whilst everyone else was around 50-90 . I'm just not good with extremely heavy gigantic balls with three holes okay . They told me to drop it instead of rolling it cos it seemed to work but i didn't want to cos it looked very unprofessional HAHAHA . Aura . Ayah who cares if i can bowl it's not important right . RIGHT .

Then went to play arcade a while . Daytona ! Then took a looong train ride home .

Today . Monday . Went to school at 9 for choir . Freaking couldn't sing properly lol . Morning sound ? Anyway finished learning the english song . I think i'm very nervous . I should stop being nervous . Also , ms lim said we ( or rather, i ) got no character . Hur . Hur . It's so weird she should say that because i don't think it can be helped lol .

Still, it went quite okay . After, went to hub to buy gift for cher then ate at ahmei cafe . And then went with beiying and gladwin to amk library and stayed there reading for about 4 hours ? Edenborn is back in my possession :) The last time i had to return it cos it was overdue , without finishing it . Felt a bit sick i think cos of reading for too long , so i slept a while .

I feel very strange because i just typed out an entire post full of rubbish with totally no value at all and i got this sudden urge to delete it all but then i would have wasted my efforts so i'll just keep it there and put up something more meaningful next time .

Omg, drained .

Carey.

2009-06-04T01:07:00.001-07:00

I am borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrred

far away

2009-05-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

Hi , it's been a while .

I've moved to xanga for the time being . Testing the waters , haha . You can choose to relink or not , until i decide to permanently blog there or wdv . Anyway things are looking real dull and shit over there but i'll figure xanga out soon alrighty .

Clickity click!

Seeyou .

night's unfolding arms

2009-05-22T06:34:00.000-07:00

Today.

Sudden drastic turns of events . Irritation . Depth . Responsibility . Imaginations running wild . Starvation . Relief . Friendship . Distance . Agreement . Nerves . Anxiety . Escapism .

I'm hoping that tomorrow morning will pass quickly . I'm really tired . Tired, but relieved .

Tired , relieved but still worried .

Fall into place .

Carey

are you ?

2009-05-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

I don't want to keep freaking out about everything like this . There's this gigantic question mark. Assurance . Just hold on a bit more .

Questions ,

Are things gonna work out ?

Have i done enough ?

Why am i always pissed?

Why am i so proud ?

What do they want ?

Why is it so hard ?

Is this it ?

Wait ?

Run away ?

Am i ready ?

time cannot erase

2009-05-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

Whoooosh .

Exam scripts are bacccckk and are somewhat disappointing although i already expected it . You're absolutely right , i'm talking about my maaaath :( I thought my A math was better but since i failed it then i guess E math don't need to say alr ..

W/e , i don't want to get all dramatic over results anyho .

Today i kept getting picked on by a particular person and i don't even know what i did wrong apart from the cwo part . W/e again , anyway ! Then my chinese cher came and nag at me twice when she met me along the road . I think she's actually real nice and real patient already cos i've owed her compo for like idk , perhaps two months and she's still willing to collect it from me and mark it so that i don't get 0 cos it's counted in SA1 . Omg i just praised her . Call the paramedics .

I've returned the library books that i've owed since the age of the dinosaurs :)

Choir has resumed . Saturday is coming . Nerves . My mom is a worrywart . I have awesome relatives . I hate security guards . Nerves . My tuition teacher is going to hack me into small pieces . Worry . Expectations . Nerves .

I spilled the beans today . It was an accident . And it was so stupid omg .

Where ?

Carey

stuck in the middle with you ,

2009-05-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

Hey . I'm in a dilemma ! I don't know if i should do my essay or go watch detective conan movies (L) . It will take me like foreverrr to write that silly essay lor :(

Today was alrightt . Went to Kranji War Memorial , the scenery was really nice and the place is like really peaceful and all . Was like taking pictures all over the place and stuff then later clique and i were camwhoring and then Mr Smith came and confiscated my cam . But nevermind, cos i got it back later anyway . The lighting there was darn good ! :)

Came back and had some talk during which i fell asleep multiple times , then had touch rugby i errrr had fun ? :) Ahem . Yeah then later had lunch with batchmates and then choir , which was quite cool :D

W/e times one million .

And my name now big big in caps on anderson portal cos i didn't return a book since like 07 . And sorry i hai dao dq cos i borrowed another one under her name and nv return :x SORRRRY I WILL RETURN IT AS SOON AS I FIND :)

NOW back to whether i should write that expo ...

p/s my white shirt collar always seems to have issues .

Carey

stay

2009-05-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hi person .

Partied yesterday :) HAHA , thanks guys for coming (L) Grounders yaaaaaaaay our tradition teehee . Anyway um a quick post because i wanna go and sleeeeeep already .

I keep telling myself i'm fat . This is because my weight gaining programme is actually working !! Good or bad thing ? Go figure . It's not just a bimbotic , mindless " omg i am sho phat, save me " thing anymore , it's coming true . I promised myself 50 sit-ups today and you can tell fat old me is just sitting here instead of fighting calories .

Yeah so well , cos it was like my birthday and then a lot of relatives gave me munnnny so i have extra extra to spend for the june hols and wdv , yay :) I bought stufff today i am a happy keed .

Excursion tomorrrrrow to Kranji War Memorial . I went there in P4 and i saw this dead guy whose name was Carey . :(

Alrighty i gtg pack naoz . Thanks carol & sammy for the bag (L) :D

Bye.

Carey

Lovebug ,

2009-05-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

HI . i know i haven't blogged in agessssssssssss . So my fifteenth birthday passed in a flash . I'm here to say a huge thank you to everyone who wished me , (:

This year is really much different from the last. I'd say tons better . Clique did something really sweet today hee hee thank you girls (L) !!! I'm sorry the elmo balloon is gone , but i will remember it always :D

Thanks daiqian for the prettttty bracelet heehee i like ! and beiying and gang for the kewwt mug , sweehwa and siting for the piggy bank , aru for the notebook and vic and viv for THE COOKIES w/o the clown and razor hahaha . ( and for more to come heeeeeeehee *wink* )

This year family celebrated at Jake's , oops i meant Jack's place . ( which is quite cheeeepo ) but it's okayyyyyyyyy yay i likz steek .

Went to eat NYNY with aud on weds :) We stalked dq and jk heehee , but my cover was blown . Don't ever eat the juicy beef tenders . Laughed a lot . Wait , did i pay GST again ? o:

Well , exams are allll ovaaaaa . I'm very very very very frightened about the results cos not only do i know myself that i screwed up geog and both maths very very hard , now they say a lot people failed chem . and only 3 people passed grammar test . It doesn't help :(

Today , woke up at 9 ( HEEEE HEEEE NO EXAMM ) then went to hub to meet clique APPARENTLY i kinda spoiled their plans haha but i didn't know right !!! then dno why peiyan kept wanting to meet me -_-then later we go ntuc and i fixed my spec then she made me run to station for no stupid reason then later there was cakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee YAYAYAY POWER RANGER WOOO . and Elmo Balloooooonzxz :)

The candle left like 1 inch tall haha . Blew and ate cake and had a lot of cream smeared onto my arms . ( new tradition ) sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk don't ever do this to your friends , okay !

Cleared up and washed arms -_- then went to FEP :) Got a weee bit lost but we made it . Shopped around , and i'm happy with my buys teehee cotton on wooohoo x) then i spent all my money like 40 buxxx and we went home with only 30 cents in my wallet :(

Oh we were camwhoring at the noodle shop and graffiti-ing the table . Actually only siying was taking pichas but OF SOMEONE ELSE AHEM . i hope you get exposed . Stop touching me too, ew >(

I had a nice daaaaaaaaaaaaaay thank you cliqueeeey . :D i miss dunney HAHA . Grasshopper man whooo !

A'ight . How about a couple of pictures ?

Boo .

Audrey : Carey, what's chivalry ( cheeeevelry )
Carey : Chivalry ( the correct pronunciationo )
Audrey : Oh i know alr , it's the place where Jesus died .
Carey : * heart attack *

2009-05-11T21:52:00.000-07:00

Guess who's here ! :)

Tomorrow is your birthday, love.
I hope you enjoy your day having papers. HAHA. Girls get beaten up in my school, but I doubt you'll get beaten up. Do you know who I am?

Knowing you for er, 11 years ( isit?) I have decided that you're a super ~~good~~ BEST friend. nobody will..

Pay for the GST countless times. ( or isit all the time? )
Buy a pencil case for me.
Pay for almost everything.
Make me laugh like crazy.
Insult me like nobody's business.
Self proclaim im invited to her birthday when i didn't agree.

I don't know what else..

I don't know what else to say.

Remember something okay? Tomorrow we have nyny together but let's change nyny. the GST there is over whelming.

BYE.

love's not always black and white ,

2009-05-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

Dajiahao .

Who wants to contribue to the Carey-needs-to-refurnish-her-room Fund !!! Okay, actually i don't need to . I want to . Okay, maybe not refurnish exactly .

Iwant.

1) Small teeveeeeee ( $200+ )

2) A new fan . ( $100?)

3) Someone to repair the damn aircon . ( $freakingalot + )

4) Pretty curtains . ($??)

5) To restock wardrobe . ( $ as much as possible O: )

6) How about a new bed ? ( $ don't know )

7) Juice blender ( wait, that shouldn't be in my room )

8) Bedroom slippers heehee .

Truth be told , i only really need the first three . Or want . Heck .

But then again my room is small like one bird's nest how to accomodate so many things ?! :(

Ya well i thought of all these things because we went to courts today to jalanjalan and i started pestering my mom about the tv thing . She want to buy lor except i have to get past my dad first . *shudders *

But ya i do want a juice blender though . An actual functioning one .

Anyway i'm gonna promise myself that i'll do this massive clean-up of my room after exams . I'm beginning to not want to live in this sty . ( this is what my mom has been waiting for ) I don't know how i live in this chaos either - piling up papers after papers all over the place , chucking clothes that i'm too lazy to put to wash . It's like when i want to sleep i'll put this small pile of clothes on my chair . If i wanna sit , i'll put it on my bed -_-

ANYWAY enough about my room . Today had church , i forgot there was no yd ._. so then i went to find carol and sam and we talked :) and then had to give gifts , which was slightly stressful o: Then ya , i got my first present :D

Very chio. But sure two days become black already . I'll do my best okay . With the very misleading box it came in . THANK YOU AUDREY CHEONG :)

you are my sunshine .

2009-05-08T08:47:00.000-07:00

So little time . So little time for everything .

I just completed my arseloads of math tuition hw i think my brain is going to blow up . pewpewpew . Anyway err i've been eating a lot of shit and taking a lot of three-hour-long afternoon naps and ya that also means me ish getting fetz .

SS and Chem paper today . Manageable . Can pass . I really need my SS to save my life zomg . Chem was quite tough argh the stupid water-molecules-drawing question . After exam , left school & went to hub for pepper lunch w siying and daiqian . Oops i just spent my class tee money on pepper lunch . Oops . I've been broke ( broke as in zero -broke ) since like two weeks ago or smth . Much much much like April last year, when i attempted to eat less so i would spend less ( which obviously failed, yes ? ) YA SO the point is we ate and talked a lot of crap and laughed at people and then we went to walk , buy snow frost , sit at random places to talk about our childhood etc. LOL .

Came home and slept. Weather is like hot hot hot to the extreme i hate sweating while sleeping . so uncomf -_-

~~Doomsday~~ Physics is cominggggg !!! I think physics will be the paper which i'm officially most unprepared for ):

I admire siying's extremely high tolerance level . Tsk .

Okay i'll end here . I hope i won't have another grumpy saturday morning :>

Carey

space .

2009-05-07T00:39:00.000-07:00

Hello how have you been .

I'm having a headache now , cos my door and windows are all closed , i think i'm lacking ventilation but there's that stupid fumigation going on yuck i can't open the windows .

I feel choked up

studies .

Sigh , why so packed !! Why two very impt papers on the same day ! Okay originally SS was not THAT important but it is now because i screwed my geog paper inside out today and i need to salvage my CH marks !!!! :( Then there's chem , omggggg like how am i ever going to cram so much shitz in one night . Tsk , last minute studying . And chi was a killer . ( finger across neck )

On a lighter note ... I HAVE ESCAPED THE CLUTCHES OF THE DENTISTS !!!

Hah . in your face damian ! i am so never going !!

I want to sleep so i can mug into the night . But my hair is wet . Oh i've got subway cookies !! (L) Better eat now , or else later at night cannot eat ._.

Cheeeerios .

Carey

breathing down my neck ,

2009-05-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

Yoyoyoyo .

Today's an okay day . There was no geog as mdm N wasn't around , sat at stone tables w dq to learn my chengyu test stuff which in the end ah ..... don't talk about it LOL . Temp. taking twice a day , reminds me of when we we're back in Primary Three . Super nice la the long break from school (:

Anyway kinda tired today , went to inspire town for english , so i sorta fell asleep on this huge blue pillow at a corner then ms sham was like " WHO IS THAT AH ! " erps . Anyway grammar test tmr oh no .

I AM VERY AFRAID FOR MY PHYSICS . i seriously think i will fail . I can't even do half of the test paper cos i don't understand anything at all . :( And chem , chem chem chem chem .. And then just today i realised theres like Emath and Bio SA1 AND TUITION on my birthday la omg how much suckier can it get :/

How to go out ... somemore next day A math , damn .

Sigh there's like really no time to study so many things .. there's already going to be like 4 subs this week . I'm not even talking about the other things i need to settle , which i've been procrastinating for darn long . Argh

pissed still , nonetheless . And totally no motivation to study .

Carey

one wrong move ,

2009-05-02T01:33:00.000-07:00

Today ,

b my parents are at Sister Island happily fishing gigantic fat juicy fish .

b i freaking woke up at 6 to go Pasir Ris for tuition myself .

b i took eight freaking bus rides .

b my sandals are going to break again

b a woman was cutting her nails on the bus .

b i spent shitloads of money @ thomson buying random stationery nonsense, subway and ( insert thing )

b i bought my fourth pencil since the start of april . Who the hell is stealing my pretty orange pencils .

b i saw a little girl not older than six singing Love Story to herself .

b i suddenly thought of how the bookshop aunty always cheats my money.

b I had a lot of time to think .

b i am still pissed .

Yesterday,

b i woke up with this super bad backache i wanted to die .

b i studied a lot . ( O: )

b i spent half my entire day in an air-con room .

The day before,

b I already posted .

b I went to eat some awesome buffet dinner

b I didn't eat much .

i'd like to stay ,

2009-04-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hello .

I had a nice examination day although i honestly think i screwed up my expo . Ya which also means i wrote number 5. WTH why only one expo !? Gosh .

Went to Novena after exams with siying . I only went out after i promised myself that i'll study hard later okay . So we went to velocity and had Hans for lunch , yay porridge . Swine flu :( Got all emo . Sheesh . Then we went to sit on this spiral staircase that had a lot of holes which would make us zhao gng then siying freaked out because it was too scary haha .

Anyway then later we went to buy korean ice cream and we went to this sitting place to camwhore and eat our ice cream . Then this bunch of small , no i mean tiny act-one mats , came and started being super irritating . Call us girl . Long pants also haven't wear come and call us girl , wp . Camwhored a lot a lot a lot. Then left and went to united sq to take a bus home :)

My mouse keeps disconnecting and connecting so irritating .

Anyway going out t celebrate mom's birthday although her birthday was like ages ago . I didn't know tmr's a public holiday !

Pictures soon . Or on FB cos siying's going to put em all there and make me lose face x102390123 because of ultimate spasticity . Don't go . Please .

My relatives always say i look like my dad . I don't right ?

Carey

your eyes

2009-04-29T05:47:00.000-07:00

Meow .

Daaayum . Today my whole family la du zi ( had diarrhoea ) and it sucked . I highly suspect it has to do with our delivery dinners . Oh, the agony i went through . Uhh ..

Anyway both EL papers are tomorrow !! I got this gut feeling i'm going to write expo again . I'm going to study my old notes :) I feel like sucha studious kid LOL .

Also , i've almost fully recovered from whatever shit :) But now my mom's got the fever . Argh . And ya some stuff are so totally getting onto my nerves it just boils my frikkin' blood . Then again i can't pin the blame on anyone cos ( insert reason ) . Pffffft .

AND FOR THE SECOND TIME I'M NOT GOING TO THE DENTIST CAN SHE STOP CALLING ME PL0X .

Damn, just drive your freaking box away already !!!

my dad just gave me a giganormous bowl of oranges even though i like orange i don't really like oranges like oranges are so damn sweet and make me sick even though they are pretty pretty orange . sigh .

Y,
Carey

all i will know,

2009-04-27T04:25:00.000-07:00

Hey .

I think i've got the swine flu . I think i'm in a rather bad condition lol . Even sleeping for like two hours did nuts for me . And i don't feel like eating dinner. Number one , i have no appetite and i can't taste . Number two , my dinner sucks . I think i haven't got the fever yet . Or headache. Or nausea . A good sign .

Class photo today . I think i look like an idiot cos the front row girls ( aka me , what's new ?) decided to put on spastic smiles . then i snuck to 2nd row for informal shot. Act cool-ed with aru HAHA . Started feeling sick during math . Actually the entire day la but it got worse. Had choir meeting then went to have subway then went home WHY IS MY BACK ALWAYS SWEATING LIKE SHIT IS IT THAT WARM .

My eyes are always watering , it's so bloody irritating can someone turn off the taps please . I can't afford to miss lessons anymore already . Ah screw .

Alright , i shall try to eat so i can take some medicine and hopefully sleep . Spam water .

Carey

p/s. I have puffy eyes and i can sing like katy perry ( in a bad way )

move on , where do i go ?

when i need you.

2009-04-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

Hi , short update :)

I'm getting the hang of it . My focus is shifting ever so slowly back to studies . Better late than never , anyways . Yesterday had study group @ library . Was slightly productive . Better than nothing . Today i did a math worksheet with aud downstairs my house . Ever so shocking :)

Audrey Cheong you better remember .

I also managed to chop my hair off. Inches gone . I now have a stubby ponytail and i think it kinda sucks but nevermind i will wait for it to grow out :) and the hairdresser is a friggin' noob he anyhow cut for me :(

I've not been nice to my throat lately , i hope to recover asap :D I almost finished all my quadratic eq ws !! (beamz) i don't usually do homework okay !

Carey

from afar.

2009-04-23T07:49:00.001-07:00

HELLOW.

Happy April 23rd. Or not.

April twenty-third .

Argh, today's a highly frustrating day. I was so tired today i slept a lot during physics . School was fine , except someone stole / we lost a leaf sample slide or something . Lum was like going mad or something , telling us to own up if we took it and all . Zz ya i'd totally steal a stupid slide with a blue leaf sample . No recess for bio studs .

After school lessons . Bio and math .

Had a meeting to discuss things . I think there's something wrong with me . I think it's cos i really really hate to be broke ( and i always make sure i'm not ) , so i get really uptight and agitated when i'm put on a tight budget . Which i am . I didn't think the task was this daunting at first . Ugh , so useless .

Then something happened just now , omg i was so irritated .
Stupid stupid stupid stupid thing .
I always hate it when that happens .

AND I AM NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT EVER GOING TO THE DENTIST OK .

Y,
Carey

everfree

2009-04-22T06:51:00.000-07:00

HELLLOOO .

I've been super duper clumsy of late it irritates me a lot . Today i poured myself a cup of nice hot water then ten seconds later i knocked it over ( ON MY DESK!!! ) i was so afraid my com would sot diao :( I knocked over a lot of things this week . Like another cup of water @ yuki&yaki . Kluttttzzzz .

Hi . My right eye is perpetually itchy , so irritating >(
I want to change spectacles .

School was fine . Vic wasn't around for the earlier part of today , so Aruna came over . I asked her how to do math and she ignored me . Then i asked Mr Lim and he taught me how to do. I was like " ohhh , okay . can " throughout although i actually couldn't understand a shiz at all . Sigh ! SS free period i ate this crab thingy . Yum .
Physics was boring . I dislike physics . Blah blah blah other lessons then chem was like practical it lasted so long we were late to have section ice cream @ canteen !!

Wow i hadn't stuffed myself with so much ice cream for a long time LOL . Thanks Kelicia & Sec4s :D I think i put on like 5kg alr . But, yum anyway :D

Chemistry test!!!! Ms mok is hilarious , i couldn't stop laughing :)

After test , no phys so i went with Aru to J8 to shopshopshop and i bought myself stuff until i was like totally broke . Broke as in zero dollars zero cents . I spent 23 bucks shopping and 5 on food . hmmm . Shopped around . Talked @ some playground , then bussed to tuition which was alright .

I think i want a haircut quite badly .
Ok i need to go hide my loot bye

Y,
Carey

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OH YES GRATS DANCE FOR GETTING GWH !!! :D (L)

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there's nothing here for me ;

2009-04-21T04:14:00.000-07:00

Hi this is a warning . Guys you might not want to read the rather superficial post ahead .

HELLO . Today ended really quite well cos i was with siying the spastic and we bought a watch each . I like it cos it has a glossy red strap . However, it's got this really weird woman's face on it , and she seems to be kissing a flower or sth . So when i was with siying , i realised that i like to buy things that other people wouldn't . This shows that i am ~~unique~~ mildly weird . Heehee .

OKAY ANYWAYYYYYY just about an half hour ago i decided to take out 50 bucks from my savings to spend this month . It really isn't a lot considering i won't be shopping much afterwards , AND also considering the fact that things now are super super expensive ( pouts ) I probably wouldn't be able to buy more than three things .

AND about ten minutes ago while i was in the toilet i suddenly felt like buying a bright red polo shirt , which i would probably never buy cos i probably won't be able to find one . I always find things i want without actually searching for them , sigh .

Fourskin wristband thingies woohoo .

YA okay today was quite a nice day but my mom is annoying me like shits AND a humongous flying ant landed on my PJs but i didn't scream (beams )

WHY ARE ALL THE BUGS COMING INTO MY ROOM ARGH SICK .

DAIQIAN let's go shopping alrights i need to go to the very dirt cheap place . ( partially disgusted with myself )

I need a belt . And rubbery ring thingies of many many many different colours wooooooooohoooo .

YA OK now there are four gigantic flying ants in my room tyvm i need to seek refuge .

After this mindless materialistic post and dinner, i shall be a good kid and study my chemistry (:

OH YA I WANNA CUT my hair . I think i'm gonna chop like three inches off :)

Excited .

I don't want my hair so layered anymore , Andrew calls me a C A L all the time like wtc omg i'm so not , i think he has never seen a real one before .

( brb )

ok my living room lights were like infested with flying ants there was at least like 30 in my living room i was trying to have dinner in peace but ya one had to fly into my spoon so i freaked out and proceeded to scream and jump about for another like ten minutes then my dad came in to make sure my room is all clear so that i can study chem in peace then he closed the windows and door which means i'm sitting in a very poorly ventilated room right now .

ugh , buggers

OK GTG BYE

Carey

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I BROUGHT HOME MY BIO TEXT INSTEAD OF CHEM !!!!!!!!!!

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i may never

2009-04-19T03:37:00.000-07:00

Helomoto . ( smiles )

Audrey's in M'sia .

Got up , got ready and got out of the house . Went to church myself . Had YD and service then aunt sent me to j8 to take a train down to city hall . Met with clique :D

Walked to marina squ . Got forced by siying to go into NUM to look for hot guys .

Ate @ some japanese steamboat&bbq restaurant . something and yuki or wdv . The soup base for steamboat suckeddddddd omg . bbq foil kept turning black . I kept burning my food or eating them raw :( Then they don't want eat the food i offer them cos they don't trust me alr LOL .

Woah then peiyan go take like three plates of fishballs, tofu etc. that sort . + the horrible soup . Then they write will charge $5 for 100g food wasted . So we panic then we did really tactful stuff ( winks ) Then we went to fry ice cream omg it was so energy consuming !!! but quite fun :D Only the ice cream and the meat was nice though .

Shopped around omg i haven't done that in ages !!!!! I realised that there are so many things i need .. fine , want. I miss buying . So today , i bought . I bought a wristband thingy from fourskin :) I like that shop . Kay so i left home tdy with like 100+ and came home with 30+ and ya that kind of means i'm a little broke but it's April hello ! At least i settled one present alr :)

Ya , so kay anyway life sucks .

W/e :(

Carey

there is no one there to dry your tears

2009-04-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

Hi .

Hello , i had a really long day today . Happy birthday mom . Belated happy birthday to

LEE PEI YAN .

you stay happy okay , Y !

Thanks for always lending me a listening ear :D

ILY ! x)

Oh yeah special thanks to clique for coming down to music room on syf day to wish me , you guys rock :D See you tomorrrrrow !!!

Hello . Argh April April April . It's the month i always run into cash-flow problems . But i'm still in the celebratory mood O:

OKAYWOOOOO

Syf day was like , everybody like suddenly reached enlightenment and sang well during prac . My nerves were like getting to me when we were outside waiting to go in . The previous school was like , whoosh man (am chio) We performed :) Dawn was in tune !!! It . Was . So . Awesome . Jap game was fun , buttttttt was sharp and also ms lim wasn't alright :/ Anyway it was a really really really cool experience . I like it .

After syf went back to school . Washed hair . Went to have lunch with some sec 3s . Came back and had treasure hunt , which was pretty coool . Had to run around alot thank you seniors ( smiles sweetly ) o: heh then later we got chased out of music room . Sat outside to await results .

"gold with honours"

( inserts deafening screams, flowing tears, non-stop cheering, sops group hug (:D) )

The feeling is an unexplainable one :D

went to eat dinner @ macs with sec3's and bryan . Quarter pounder ! c:

Speeeeech day!!

940 school ended . Went to eat at void deck w by aru and gladwin . Then came back t meet at hall . Tension . Then went with a big bunch of people to hub to eat . Went to park to play silly games lol like charades and stuffs (: Then went back and started to change and make up and everything . Ya thanks to bei's mascara i had black splotches on my eye . I will never put mascara ever again .

Pictures @ music room . Waiting to get them :) Ate some disgusting fried rice . Went to perform however it could have been better . Waited for curtain call . Went up and pohseng and aaron decided to be very extra indeed and were the only guys standing among the girls in the FIRST row . Went back , pictures again , changed .

Yuhao's and Siewmun's shoes went missing !! Which retard goes around stealing shoes . Went to search for it around the labs where it was really dark , found sm's shoe , lying around near phys lab -.- proceeded to search the 3 levels . THANK YOU FOO BEIYING AND PANG JINHU FOR always succeeding to scare the shits out of me . And gladwin ah , the stupid moving leaves >(

by : Eh the inspire town projector got light !!!! ( got O:)

jinhu : This is true ah. You know the biology lab, got the skeleton.. ( when we were outside the biolab )

I screamed and ran down . Everybody started screaming and running down ._.

Stupid . Made me run so much and sweat a lot lol . Afterwards went and blahblahblah-ed and then went to eat dinner with seniors :) @KFC . OMG CUTECUTECUTE BABY :D listened to beiying warp our choir songs into perverted songs ( didn't know she was like that right ! ) -.- and then took a bus home .

The End .

It feels damn irritating to think we'll hardly get to come tgt for pracs or other stuff with the seniors anymore . I got this gut feeling i'm gonna miss yall a lot , so don't go :(

There, but not really there anymore . Weird feeling i don't want to feel.

( inserts a face )

Kelicia , i know you'll read this o:
Sops love you (L) :D

always our SL Y

Alrighty enough sad soppy stuff . Better get started with quadriatic equations (groans)

Alotttttttt offfff Y,

Carey

shine

2009-04-16T09:17:00.000-07:00

I didn't think i'd blog about this today . But technically it's tomorrow , but .. ayah you get it . Anyway after many many many months of going through loads of shit and sweat and blood and whatever . Ok actually more of fun and a lot of encouraging stuff (: ......

Gold with Honours .

And we're so proud of it ! :D So many people there are to thank . Just so many .

Miss Lim (L) , Teachers-in-charge , Seniors , the HCJC people who came down to help , the Hungarian , everybody who sacrificed sth in one way or another for us :D

I feel so weird . Everytime i think about it i feel weird . Like i'm going to burst . But that's weird . Anyway post-syf life is kind of aimless and i don't wanna go back to having to focus on studies . It's a whole new weird feeling . Ugh weird .

AND the seniors will be going soon ): crapshitz . AND there'll be no choir for like super duper long . AND there'll be the silly SA1s .

Alrightyyy i just finished all the compre's i owe ms sham VERY VERY GOOD BYEBYE .

ANDERSON CHOIR (Y)

GOGOGOGO

2009-04-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

Fight !

Today's a good day . It's a good day-before-syf . The least that could happen is that morale is high , and morale IS high . So good . & the feel of dawn is coming back to me teehee x) Better late than never anyway !

Gogogo sops :> Whatever it is , we won't give up halfway !
Let's make all these months pay off ! I hope we won't have to cry tmr haha . OKAYOKAYOKAY ANYWAY..

GWH FTW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

School was alright today , was only around for the first 2 lessons. International Friendship day lol . Spend craploads of money on foreign food . Had prac , speech day rehearsal which was NOT BAD . then settled a lot of stuff and spent eternity assisting aruna in ironing gowns and stuffs . Then went back . And i'm going to sleeeeeeeep heehee so early ! :D

Y,
Carey

When ?

2009-04-14T03:35:00.000-07:00

Hello there .

Yoyoyo SYF is in two days two days two days two days two days !!! Two days away from the big day and like super a lot of people are sick ! Mingzhen , Aruna , Jesslyn , Courteny , Siew Mun , Calvin , Yixin get well soon !!!! :B Meanwhile i hope i don't start to fall sick lol .

Wow . Either i've been really super drained out the past few days or i've been darn lazy , cos i've been sleeping earlier than 1030 everyday.

Heeeeeeeeee . Today's an average day . Had prac from 840-940 which means that i skipped math ( cheeeeers ! ) & i didn't sleep during chinese . wow that is almost a stunt . oh crap i forgot to return kelicia's protractors. anyway my eyes damn itchy i think i should stop rubbing them . back to school , errr nothing much . then afr school had sectionals .

afr sectionals delayed friggin long then went off with by and johanna to hub to eat lunch then walked around and failed in my mission . However i bought myself things insead ._. one pouch for my makeup things for SYF and a new hp strap which was badly needed cos my old one was from my thumbdrive ( omg i sound so cheapo here )

K whatever .
give up ?

Y,
Carey

just a little .

2009-04-12T01:41:00.000-07:00

Boo !

Have not been feeling well since i came home from church . Nausea and headache . Deadly combination . My whole family's health condition is going haywire . My mom has stomach trouble , and my dad got headaches . I think it's the weird drink my mom made us drink on friday . But that was darn long ago .

Nothing helps .

Anyway i have plans made for after syf !

I'm going to :

- Eat at manhattan / NYNY with aud (winkwink)

- Have group study !!

- Go shopping ( badly badly needed )

- Gorge myself on all the untouched 'forbidden' food . ( = exploding weighing scale )

.. and it's happening real soon !

Mixed feelings . Like most normal people , i can't wait for SYF to be over and done with . But somehow i also have this nagging feeling that i don't actually want it to be over so soon . Maybe because the process of preparation and all has been real fun stuff and all . And seniors leaving ! D:

Argh okay whatever . I think i need food . (thumbs up) Food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food . ( i manually typed this okay , )

I think sec three life is really quite hectic ( esp for those w syf ) . Hardly getting to eat outside of school + Abstaining from heaty food = not spending as much money !!! I hereby declare that i am proud of myself for saving $50 in the month of March ( inserts very pleased face ) !!

Awww shucks . That money'd probably go into the manhattan meal + paying part of aud's bill + stupid stupid GST ( which i always seem to be paying ) .

Hee hee i posted a longer post i like myself .

+ i'm feeling better !!! ( twist )

Carey

take a breath ,

2009-04-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

Hi . I think i've been a real loser of late . I can't take it anymore lol . I hate my life being so darn routined . I think i can name 101 things i hate about my life .

1. I dislike my eyebrows .

2. I dislike math tuition A LOT .

3. I dislike sucking at piano .

4. I DISLIKE PENKNIVES

5. I dislike travelling in frigging hot weather .

6. I dislike having to go for a stupid interview.

7. I dislike being forced to back out on things .

8. I dislike not being motivated to study physics.

9. I dislike not understanding math.

10. I dislike being at home when i'm not alseep.

11. I dislike losing my appetite .

12. I dislike backache .

13. I dislike disgusting people .

14. I dislike pretentious people .

15. I dislike that time is passing so slowly .

16. I dislike that SYF will soon be over .

17. I dislike that my life is about to change again .

18. I dislike being scolded for every small little thing .

19. I dislike pimple outbreak .

20. I dislike waiting .

Nevertheless , i'll wait .

On a lighter note, i had a nice time yesterday @ my grandma's sister's daughter's ( aunt? ) wedding . She's a real doll . Cousins (: More pictures another day , have to get most from cousin cos camera batt was flat :x Choir today was not bad . Got hope got hope x)

Ya okay anyway , w/e . Monday , come soon . please .

Carey

uncertainty ;

2009-04-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

Second chance . Grab it . Keep it .

Disgusting , that's all you are . More than ever .

with you ,

2009-04-08T05:40:00.000-07:00

(O:)

Hey .

Argh why is this happening now there's only 7 days left after today . They're right , it'll depend a lot on individual effort now . I believe in us, we can do it if we try hard enough (: We've gone through so much already , it's the final lap yo . Let's give it our best shot !

Away from that, I'm just so tired . And sometimes i really wonder . But i know i won't be getting an answer. Oh well , things could be much worse . I guess .

I really don't like this . Everything is going wrong .

Y,
Carey

how much more ?

2009-04-07T06:26:00.001-07:00

Hiez .

I asked my mom to teach me how to apply eyeliner ( frog in the well , i know ) so that i can salvage my very-ugly-when-fringe-is-up-during-syf face . However , it didn't go as well as planned and i ended up looking like avril lavigne (in a bad sorta way) plus my eyes are super irritated and red now . I feel like a failure . & i can't let my mom do it cos i have something against people whose judgement i'm not sure if i can trust holding a pen dangerously near to my eyeball . It just freaks me out okay i didn't even dare to do it myself .

Yeah anyway today was alright . Pretty fun i must say . Tio meh during english and i did my work okay !!! then after that had lessons and chem was so boring and then mdm tey didn't come . :D we were fiddling with the guitar tuner then i screamed into it and almost dropped it lol . Slept during chinese, shiok :) Then SS was free period again and we played a fun game with aru . Haha first her belt disappeared , then her pencil case, then her box and bag then her entire table and chair HAHA omg damn funny , then she fell into depression . Treasure hunt :>

Ate with aruna and talked . Then went for speech day rehearsalllll . Which was quite ugh but ya . Awkward also . Then went and had sectionals at the quadriangle till like 650 like that (omg) and the fastfastloudloud part i zaosia-ed like very badly and loudly it was so embarrassing gah .. then went avt and ate Pipagao :D and then dismissed and walked to amk . bought pipagao with beiying to share hahaha . 86-ed with seb and got home at like what 8 . omg ._.

Hello . I just remembered i have chinese tuition tomorrow . And i have to do my math tuition homework . And that sort of really sucks and i really cannot stand my ponytail curling to one side anymore it irks me A LOT .

I really hope choir tmr won't suckkkkkkkkk :(

Oh man , after today , 8 more days . No shit already :<

I know .

Carey

aren't memories supposed to fade ?

2009-04-06T05:58:00.000-07:00

Hello .

I'm exhausted . I know the TICs, the pres' , SLs , Ms Lim are a gabillion times more exhausted but nonetheless, still still still exhausted . Like vic would say , " times ten to the max " and that ain't even half of it . Okay, exaggeration but i'm really tired okay . I'm going stiff .

See see see, that's us yo ( except tabitha's not around ! :c ) , except we're now sec threeez , and we should be better than before . We can make this happen okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay don't give up sopsssssss >D After tonight , 9 more days ( with seniors D:) ! with 7 spent having choir . So let's make the best out of it , i'm tired of getting scolded >)

Today was okay . Now everyday i live thinking that i'll be called for oral the next lesson and freaking out over it . & also about how ms lim wants us to not have any strand of hair sticking out of our faces for SYF = total unglamness and fugliness . Yeah but who cares okay WHO CARES WHO CARES ( sobs )

Oh and my appetite is coming back i think i should gorge myself while it's still here :) Who who who who cares about being fat, huh ?

SS test was omgscrewedupsidedown my hand hurt hurt hurt cos i thought there was not gna be enough time so i wrote at superspeed i think my handwriting was hardly legible. Ya anyway i luv ms sham ok she went mad and gave us 5 compos to write by mid-may or sth . Bio was really stupid thanks to aruna who confused amylase with starch and then put the thermometre in the beaker upside down . Best.

And i don't know what to do anymore :(

Okay byebye i have a date with a cup of pi pa gao . (L)

Y,
Carey

gone for good,

2009-04-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hi ,

I haven't blogged for 2 plus days ! & I can't tell if i'm getting fatter or slimmer . I lost my appetite for most of the week but 'cos i know i need to eat so i stuff myself anyway. I feel sick everytime i do that . Ugh . Ya away from that , i had a pretty fun couple of days when i was away from here .

Friday,

Was like idk what i forgot alr lol . But i know i spent 6 hours @ choir which really gives the the the sense of acheivement ( HA ) Hope it paid off :) Though i was like totally burnt out after and slept at 10+ (O:) Yah anyway yes our gowns are like quite ugly i know. But it's okay la . Hello, the tailor wants to alter my empire waist thingy higher somemore ._. like ew . But i like my heels heehee except that i wore it for a while and my toes felt like breaking . Ouch .

Saturday,

was spent with my mom in the morning @ thomson plaza. Then went for piano, came back & then went for my youngest cousin's birthday party ! (squeals.) Yeah yummy food . (squeals harder.) And got gathering with my cousins again! Haha 'twas fun. Played bomb bags with the little kidz and this stupid guy called Zixiang called me a sucker cos i screamed okay wth >( LOL then went up to slack and it was fun :D Cousins ! haha . Went home quite late . Shall not post pic's cos i look horrid lol.

Sunday,

is today . And today was fine . Attention span during yd is diminishing and that is bad bad bad . Went for service cos my duty term is over :) Miss 'em kids lol . Anyway ya then me and aud crapped shitloads then we decided to run over to the opposite bus stop in the heavy rain after letting 5 buses pass . ate @ pastamania (L) Etiquette my dear friend :>

Went home and studied a bit of SS then fell asleep . Woke up and once again forced down my dinner , which would have been a really nice dinner if i had the appetite lol . Wasted .

After today , 10 days more , choristers :D All the way !

Time to do some feeeeesics . Bai.

Carey

don't know why i do ,

2009-04-02T04:51:00.000-07:00

Crunch ( haha )

Hello folkz . Today was a great day lol i laughed so much . During curriculum, i had random stomach pains like 3-4 times . Laughed a lot during English , about Jinhu and Carla ( HAHAHA ) then bio was cool too (: School was fun !

After school ate at opp. with vic aruna jaini jw calvin courtney and talked . then went back and crapped a lot in class. Bro, dontcha love your new ringtone !! HAHA. My phone got stolen by damian like 3 times today . Went for chem which was quite fun haha . Then Physics but mdmtey went home LOL so we crapped and sang in class haha . then we went up and then my mom suddenly said not eating out so don't have to rush home . So stayed in class and watched damian and xiuming bully aruna . ( HAHHA DAMN FUNNY ) Watched them steal her shoes then throw them out the corridor then lock her out when she went to get them . Then later they proceeded to rape her and she was so powerless and then i watched her get pregnant and listened to the guys sing sick songs . Then . went home .

TIRED .

lol . I want french braids . Bro, don't emo laaaaa why you so emo today !!!!!!

Recess sectionals tmr . Wow okay omg i'm really shag buttttttttttttt . I gotta lotta homeworkkkk and mr lim is coming back tmr oh no :(

CONGRATS ALL ANDERSON MILITARY BAND MEMBERS ON GOLDDDDDDDDDDDD :D

Hah . Choir ah choir ah , GWH K ! :DDDDDDD

Okay . goodbye .

Y,
Carey

let me believe ,

2009-04-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

Ello .

Had a pretty rough day . Started off okay , had choir in the morning which was a little less than fine but still okay. April Fool's joke on teachers was like totally screwed up, to think i thought mdm neo was really cute and would do sth funny . Eucks . Then stuff happened and i was kinda miffed about it . Then during lunch damian and omar told me they flushed my pencil case into the toiletbowl or something LOL , wth .

Learnt about something that i wish i never knew cos it makes me feel like the horrible person i am and i hate it i hate it why must it seems so terribly familiar .

W/e .

Choir was sucky and i felt really lousy but ya wth lol . 2 more weeks fellas let's bia all the way manzxz !!!!! (:

Ya well anyway on a sidenote : I like chemistry lab lessons a lot , funfunfunfunfun :] i think efferversence is sucha cool word . Efferversence . Hah . Efferversence .

ALL THE WAY LEE PEI YAN & BAND MEMBERS FOR SYF TMR ! :D

Oral is getting me on my nerves again. Ya okay well i think i'm sucha loser . Such a loser omg . I always don't do things that i have to then i end up avoiding it and running away from it . Did i mention that i think i am a big loser ? Sorry about the absolutely bursting ego .

W/e. Again.

Y,
Carey

i wonder where they are ;

2009-03-31T04:54:00.000-07:00

Helloz ,

Wow i'm getting like super tired nowadays . Yesterday's mission failed terribly as i sat at my bed having laid out all my homework attempting to complete ALL of them and in less than 15 minutes i zonked out . That sucked .

Hello ya today was a fine day i think . I keep getting bullied during math i wonder why . Tsktsk . Oh yez mr lim won't be around the next two days ( throws confetti ) :D Well um attempted chem during EL thx jinhu for letting me BROWSE his worksheet haha . Chem was okay , mr leow came to sit behind us . Could clarify stuff lol and tio this hard question that the lum told me to do on the board but i didn't know how , damn embarrassing and wdv .

Had chinese which was ownage LOL ya then had EFL which was pretty kewl . then afr school had lunch with aruna then was damn funny cos damian keep scaring her . and she bet she wouldn't scream ever again then she lost the bet and had to give damian 2 bucks LOL . And the Case of the missing wallets D: Math afrnoon lesson and then waited for aru in band 2 eng class . then went to hub to buy stuff . and snow frost x) and ya i'm a bit broke now.

And there's choir at 715 tmr ! And OH it's April fools tmr ! ( insert excited face ) AND IT'S 16 DAYS AWAY FROM SYF !!!!!!!!!!!! D:

No more sweets/chocolates/fried food ANYMORE . Just 16 more days . How hard can it be ? :)

And w/e .

I'm not going to let myself frustrate over all those things anymore

Carey

do you ever think ,

2009-03-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

Heyyo .

Hi fellaz . Basically today was fine except that i wore low socks with new shoes and that means my foot got cut and it was really really painful , anyway thx huiling for the plaster lol . Limped around like some baika ._. Anyway lessons were fine ( omg chinese lesson ) , math test was pretty .. okay i'm quite optimisitic about it (winkwink) i think can pass heehee . Well rushed t choir had a bit of prac then went for lunch w siying then went back and had choir till 6+ . Mom bought me a pair of croc shoes for me haha NO NOT THE FAT FAT ONE WITH HOLES i hate that . Walked with peiyan then bought pretty plasters HAHAHA took 86 with seb and went home quite late . Argh :/

Anyway being lazy is baaaad and that's what i've been since term started . Got to buck up NAO , so i shall spend my entire night doing homework that i've owed since term started . I hope i can . And i want to back out of the scholar thingy :( I HATE auditions/interview/ORAL omg .

Well off i go .

Y,
Carey

what a rush .

2009-03-29T04:24:00.000-07:00

Hi persons .

I had a fine day , although i threw a tantrum again and i've been very hot tempered and frustrated but no worries , that will change . Stress .

The agenda for tonight is :

1. Revise math for tmr's test

2. Complete math tuition homework

3. Attempt some homework

4. Study scores

5. Stand in front of a mirror and keep my mouth wide open and slap myself if it gets smaller.

6. Drown myself

Hello . My yummy nougats expire on the 18th April which means i have exactly TWO days to eat the whole packet . Yay . Tomorrow is Monday and that means .. it's starting all over again . Sigh . Hopefully the day will end well aka choir goes smoothly without all the usual demoralising shitz . Last Friday was good, really . Must . Keep . Improving .

To hyo and all the other drama kidz out there, good luck for SYF tmr (:

Toodlez Poodlez .

Y,
Carey

let it go .

2009-03-28T01:39:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone .

It's raining . I don't like to shut the windows when it rains . I like the smell of rain . It smells clean .

I've decided, more or less, to take things easy. I hope it works .

Carey

tell me why you're so hard to forget ,

2009-03-27T05:39:00.000-07:00

Taken during EL free period when i was reading singapore true ghost stories and daiqian thought my legs looked nice ( LOL ) .

Yo . Today's words are : ~~Pissed .~~ Ultra pissed .

Or how about " absolutely disgusted " ?

Both work fine for me .

That summarizes my day during curriculum time . Not to mention the bread keychain i bought for my stupid retarded bro just tore off like that . What The Hell . After school had lunch with Arrrrna and i ranted a lot to her lol then went for 5 hour long choir . Which was bad at first but got better , i'm starting to like sectionals more :D Morale was skyhigh after sectionals . Played some funny game while walking. So the day ended passably . Got my new ezlink i like it cos my P6 face is on it .

Everybody's having problems . What the hell what is going on nowadays ?

And i can't believe i only found out today . I don't know how , why and when but it's going around . To those who don't believe it : Thank you . I'm comforted to know that there are still some people who can tell truth from atrocity . & to those who think they know, but don't , sorry if i gave you this impression of me, and that i'm not able to change your mind .

And guess what , even if i say it doesn't , it does matter to me . I hate knowing that this untruth is spreading like wildfire . Stop it . You all know close to nothing . I'm not even going to try guessing who started it .

Screw off pleeze .

Carey

make things new ;

2009-03-26T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hey fellas .

Today was an okay day . I think i let my frustration get the better of me today . I realised how kanchiong i actually am and i ain't liking it one bit . I also worry alot about stupid things, making me like very kiasu and all . Argh , hate .

Lessons were alright . I liked bio lesson cos it was super don't play play like haha . Like finally - lessons !! Physics lab was boring but quite coooool . After math we wanted to eat cake then MrL wouldn't leave the class !!!! Then he said that he don't want to see this anymore lol . Wanted to light candles , so went to 3/4 to celebrate alvin's and benet's lol . Candles ! So exciting !!! Not bad, but quite small . Alvin, Jiankun , damian, joel , weile , benjamin , beiying , johanna and myself . Then daiqian was there eating the leftovers LOL .

Cleaned up and went to eat with dq . Then went for CIP which was quite fun . We realised how people always knock three times LOL . Then there was this cat and it was kinda aggressive and it didn't let us take our newspapers from our pile . Then _____ started barking at it like mad ( HAHAHAHHAHAHA ) then it chuatio and ran away HAHAHA . Epic farneeeee plzzzzz lol.

went back and went off with clique . Went to hub and ate snow ice with siying (L) !!!!! then took a bus home :D Yumnumnum .

Anyway why do i get the feeling tmr is going to be even more depressing ? Oh maybe cos there's choir ( O: ) hahah but yeah must must must must jiayou alr i'll go and memorise my scores NOW .

PITCHERS .
( oh lookyyy who'z behind )

Happy birthday retarded person !

Y,
Carey

26 march

2009-03-25T07:08:00.000-07:00

IT'Z OUR ( OK FINE YOUR ) BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

FINALLY !

Happy birthday to one of the world's most retarded people !

Alvin Tan Zuo Qing is now fifteen !

Stupid old man . Old like one old dude with EAR HAIR . ( disgusting ) ( okay that's like one of the first few things i talked to you about -.- ) Ya anyway stop being arrogant okay so what if your math is good hmpth . Stupid arrogant face . Don't think you can teach me spelling ah okay , band 1 english hor .

Ya anyway here's the post . I am quite surprised we became quick friends this year haha . I never thought i would make friends with you LOL . I used to think you were like super emo and quiet but ya you definately proved me wrong ._. I never thought you were retarded . I seem to always make friends with retarded people .

Anyway arrrrh . It'z our burfdaee !!! (D:) Ya i thought calling you twinny like how other people do would sound like super gay x1000000 . TWIINNNNYYYYYYY (omg kill me!)

anyway ah i hope you will continue to stay spastic okay and stop being stressed over academics cos you're doing FINE . Please stop being a slacky minister and don't you dare chuck the work at me okay

K la thanks for listening to my crap and my a lot a lot of complaints ( eh you complain a lot also ok ) And also for rubbing salt in my wounds like during math . And for doing part of the SS proj i was supposed to do lol .

I want my bubble buddy soon . Heeheez .

And you better treat me better ok i know your secrets ( teehee )

Happy birthday to us retarded bro (:

Carey

could hardly believe it ,

2009-03-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

Helloz .

Today was alright . I found out that my head was made of iron . Damian threw an M&M at my head and it cracked open LOL . I also found out that you can never win playing eraser fighting when your opponent is using an M&M . I got assaulted a lot during phys and chem .

Voice training in the wee hours of the morning . It was quite okay , learnt stuff . Then erica said she wanted to hear us sing national anthem loudly during assembly . I was supposed to sing with Aruna but it was so quiet , i got scared i couldn't be heard LOL .

:/

Classes were fine .

Had our own voice training during sectionals which was pretty cool . I think a lot of us improved quite a bit (: Although combined wasn't as good . We'll keep improving , yes :D

Late for tuition . Blah blah . Tmr is going to be a great day ! I like CIP so egggggciting . not to mention it's 26 march which means ( inserts meaning ) !! YAY HAHA .

Check back here soon :D

Y,
Carey

holding you ;

2009-03-24T03:54:00.001-07:00

Haiiiiiiiiiiiii .

It's 24 march alr ! O:

I had a short nap just now . Right now i don't know if my dad's gonna pick me or if i have to go to hub myself. Ugh . Got to buy new court shoes by tmr ( inserts pleased face ) The old one is absolutely hideous okay !!

Tmr got voice training like early in the morning omg . I'm scared lol . Heard that she wants to audition us , which gets worse . Imagine how i freaked in front of mr poh ah , now in front of ms lim .. Keel me pleez .
I can't i can't i can't i can't i can't i can't i can't i can't i can''t i can't i can't :/
Sigh .

Okay . Today was a long day , lessons passed super slowly . My eyes were like closing during english . Maths don't need to say la har? Arrogant somemore lor Alvin ! >(

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Chemistry sucked cos i don't understand i think i'll fail this term . Then Physics was okay mdmT gave us chocolates (:D) and worm gummies ( WHICH WERE DISGUSTING . SHH ) CHAARRRBAKAK !! O: LOL .

Chinese was like doing really retarded stuff w vic -_- translation . Then slept for a while . SS was fine .

And i've gotta compile some shitz for bio . and i don't even understand the research that was thrown at me .

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I think i've become very lazy of late. Ugh .

Wow ok now i'm really scared about tmr :(

._. Anyway to overcome stagefright (?) lol . Singing in a choir is one thing , singing individually is totally totally totally another thing . :/

And i've been junking out a lot recently * narrows eyes at big picture above * My throat is feeling sucky . lol , my bad :(

!,
Carey

everytime i try ,

2009-03-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

" CAREY SHOW ME WHAT A KIWIBERRY LOOKZ LIKEEEEE !!! "

Super like a kiwi right ! ( inserts excited face ) So freaky heehee . And it tastes like one too just that it's smaaaaall and greenish and kewt . Okay enough lalala girl-like talk .

Today was terrrrrible times ten to the max ( victoria o: ) I got lucky when i forgot to bring my tie down then NLK didn't come :> Slacked off at the library during geog and talked with dq , later had bio then chinese . And i couldn't find a comf. sleeping position ugh . Left halfway during english and we were like slacking off and stuffing ourselves in the canteen .

Rehearsal @ VCH was bad . ugh .

I suck .

Then later back in school , and i can't even do something simple . screwed up .

BBTed then walked to amk and took 86 with seb then i went to yck to meet my parents and have dinner and stuff .

Okay . Not really in tip-top condition today . I feel stiff lol.

Sigh anyway life's like that .

Carey

three words for you ,

2009-03-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

'Lo .

Wao . Past few days zoomed by in like supersonic speed man . In fact it's like the entire holiday just flicked by . These two days have been kinda messed up . Schedules have been rescheduled countless times . I've lost track of a lot of time here .

Choir has been pretty okay . Haven't been scolded . Much . Except that sops screwed up the perf today ( says Her Highness herself ) which is kinda .. regrettable :(
SYF rehearsal on monday . Let's make the best out of it (:

Sigh . Instead of the holidays being a time to rest up for the new term , i'm totally worn out. I need to cheeeel out more .

Oh yes i did chill out today with aud . Oh my yum yum bubble tea chocolate ice cream jagabee yum . Sigh all this holiday expenditure is resulting in an exploding weighing scale and a bleeding wallet .

Gimme a break .

But i saw that rainbow which made my day worth living . It was just pretty beyond words okay plus the sky was actually pink and orange (Y) Pity it lasted for like half an hour max or even shorter . Glad to have my handy dandy camera .

Tomorrow is Rachel's birthday i think , Happy birthday , YD cher for the 3rd year :)
Monday is Colleen's birthday , happy birthday waver x)

Toodles .

Carey

why you ?

2009-03-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

clicky !

HI i had a great day today with bestie . Our cake was a little bit screwed * points finger at audrey * but it was yummy despite the little bits of fruit stuff inside . Yum . Had our fair share of fun (:

I ate most of the cake . I think my waist size increased significantly .

Had fun on the damn long train ride , haha .

Gotta run , bai (L)

Y,
Carey

escape to the seaside ,

2009-03-18T00:24:00.000-07:00

HEEEEELLO . I didn't blog yesterday ! Yesterday was tuesday and Mr Velasco came and he's hilarious omg LOL . Haha what a perky guy . So yesterday's session was fine i guess , afr that ate stuff then met siying at yck then we came home and she went to find her senior lol .

Today had another choir prac , i was sniffling away at first lol then got better . Practise went surprisingly well (: The pronunciation for the hungarian song was funny lol .

After choir went to sumo house with choristers !! Yum . Thanks to beiying i sat opposite pohseng and he burps a lot and super loudly . And Aaron smartly used my spoon to mash wasabi -.- Yumyum so like everyone was koping each other's food -.- pohseng's tako was supa nice .

* salivates *

I think i like you . ( inside joke LOL ) Played the staring game , i won Aaron ha . ha . ha .

Anyway then took a bus home and i'm pretty tired right now and i've got tuition in less than 2 hours . And i have to prepare stuff for my mom to cook , wth ._.

Goodbye .

Carey

walk right through ,

2009-03-16T05:34:00.000-07:00

Hihihihi i'm rushing this blog post cos i need to go bathe and stuff . I had the roughest night last night , i think i hardly slept at all . Maybe a couple hours but that's waaaaay below the standard for a holiday day lol . Back hurt so much i couldn't sleep i almost cried wth . And good news is , i feel it coming on again right now . What the feeeeesh .

And then here comes dad who smartly bought this new fruit called a kiwiberry . ( this reminds me a whole lot of neopets , i wonder why ) and now my tongue and throat is like bloody itchyyyyyy ~~i wish i could cut it off~~ it's frustrating . I hope it doesn't like make me have a sore throat . SYF judge workshop tmr ):

Okay so today was alright . I spent 4-5 hours in vivo with mom . I got my river island sneakers very happy happy happy :D And a new waterbottle that's so-so . lol , i threw a tantrum :/

Okay backache is acting up . I don't know how i'm going to survive tmr , like what 1230 - 5 that's like 4.5 hours kay probaby standing too . God . Save . Me . Plz . :(

and my throat starting to pain alr . wth la i refrain all week from snacks and one whole yummy bag of nougat and then my throat still gets pwned by some freak berry .
:(
i am so screwed .

Y,
Carey

it is the things you do ,

2009-03-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

Hello .

I'm feeling extremely not good . I've got this freaking backache tormenting me . And it aches like crazy okay i feel like shit times 13332938 . And i'm trying so hard to concentrate on my chemistry worksheet but then it's bothering me really a lotttttttttt okay it hurts .

Homework progress is pretty slow but i think i deserve a clap for starting in the first place , ( which normally doesn't happen ) ._.

My back's aching like @#!%!*& okay i'm not kidding .

To sum it up i'm feeling terrible . I kinda remember this having a backache of this intensity last year , which does not bring back fond memories , and does not help my backache right now .

So , therefore , hence , i'm going to ~~jump off a ledge~~ bear with it . Help .

Walao shit cannot take it alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . Bye .

!,
Carey

i ain't afraid of no ghost !

2009-03-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hello!!!
Pardon the very act cute mouth shape , i didn't mean it , honest . You are actually supposed to look at the watch only . Maybe i should have cencored out my face , yes ?

I spend the time after piano watching Extreme Ghostbusters :D Thanks to kayhwee , i now know that my used-to-be-one-of-my-fav cartoon shows is on youtube :) I watched twelve episodes today ( and counting ... ) Yay ghost busterzzzzz . ~~I think i am very child-like .~~

Today i didn't take an afternoon nap . And i had an effective piano lesson which i haven't had for eons . My fault entirely , of course .

Kay well , holidays are here . Yay . Boo . Yay . I maintain that i like school . Still . But yaaaaaaa look at the shitloads of homeworrrrrrk yo . I have like 11 things to do , and they're pasted on my wardrobe. & i've only completed 2/11 today , i feel great .

Well , Happy 14th of march guyz . Dqian , bring home that distinction and make me proud !! >)

(LOL)

Back to EGB (:

who you gonna call ?

Carey

no we'll never say bye,

2009-03-12T23:35:00.000-07:00

( i like this picture a lot lol )

Huhlowz . Today's fine , i spent a shitload of moneyyyyy like 30 bux . I feel kinda pathetic and wasteful , but ayah nevermind la what's done is done . Xcountry's finally over.. and i got 10th+ position !!!! ( from the bottom ) No shit lol , i walked all the way . & i know it ain't exactly something to be proud of . I saw like truckloads of my juniors overtaking me and calling me a slacker ( Joshua! D< ) Eh, the tar isn't exactly the most glam place to die okay !!

Walking seriously wasn't hard but then the track was like freaking long . Walked with valerie . Walking also can sweat so much tsk ._.

They kept us on the muddy cesspit of a field for super long . Must stand . squat . stand . squat -.- Damian is one of the grossest things on earth >( I opened umbrella and asked other people to carry it . So many people squeezed under one haha , and got poked on the head x100 -.- prizegiving , 3/3 WON WON WON WON WON :D thanks to the awesome people who can really run . hee .

Took a bus to j8 with Dqian and Pyan and saw aruna &co. @ swensens & mdm neo &co too LOL . Ate @ peeetza hut :D this time nothing bad happened * raise eyebrows at siying * heehee . I was damn hungry i ate 4 pieces of pizza aka one whole pizza .

Later i started splurging on a lot of random small stupid worthless things ( ok maybe not worthless ) like gacha , and got this REALLY DAMN UGLY BLUE THOMAS THE TRAIN WATCH . Y . U . C . K . ( i wanted white :[ ) Maybe i should give it to beiying lol . It was 2 bucks ._.

Later i was looking @ kiddy watched & dq spotted this damn damn damn cute watch omggg x 9999 It was 8 bucks , then i bought it . Sorry babe i know you wanted it really bad but didn't have funds and wasn't really keen on having the same one haha . Ps :/ Bought honeysticks :D * pokes audrey hard with it *

Bought a handphone strap that's really short and thin and i think it's weird . Another 2 bucks .

Bought stuff @ action city , 10 bucks .

Aft that pok kai already ._. & peiyan ezlink broke , lucky dq returned me 2 bucks so she can take train haha .

Kay anyways i don't have math tuition tmr I AM VERY VERY HAPPY means i can sleep in :)

* starts dancing around *

I really . really . like my watch .

i can't keep up ,

2009-03-12T01:38:00.000-07:00

Hihiii !

I don't like the way my mouth looks in pictures , so i just had to cover it ._. I have never been able to smile properly with my mouth closed :( And i likeeeee how my hair looks damn orange in the picture HAHAHA . Not just the light effect okay . Kay , i shall aim to finish this post in fifteen minutes so that it'll be five and i'll go sleep for 2+ hours . Yay naps .

Today got back results slip . Freaking disappointed kinda . My msg is like what , three . and my L1R5 is like shitttts . Two C6es one on top of the other don't look pretty , :( Screw maths upside down . Next term i will not get C6 for math .

So yeah today was alright . Boring to say the very least , for the earlier part of the day . Then bio came and didn't listen as hard as i should have cos Aruna's a distraction o: Geog and SS were okay , took this test lol . I scared i would flunk . Umm, then went for lunch damn damn damn damn damn supa funnny . Haha

Lekha stole Aruna's phone then they were like fighting for it super kewt LOL . then Lekha told her she hid it in the drain , then Aruna went to find LOL . We hid it on the table under the potato chips bag . Then she kept going back to the drain to find x4 LOL . She looked super pitiful and she kept whining like siao .

" Aruna , did you check the left side? "

* goes back to check again *

then later lekha was like " it's somewhere on the table la you dumbass "

Laughed until my stomach and back hurt a lot lol .

Extra lessons was like what 15 minutes LOL . then went home with Aruna . We went to pop @ jubilee and talked a lot. bought crayons HAHA :)

" Eh carey you wanna buy glue !! :D "

-_-

Homed . I'm kinda tired . And very hungry . I only had a sandwich for lunch x( K i shall give in to temptation and eat a nougat

BAI !

Carey

i won't give up till it's over,

2009-03-11T06:01:00.000-07:00

Hey, Yo ! Uploading songs into my phone cos some bugggerz keep asking me for it O: yay now my phone is updated . Kay , today was alright . I had this really strong determination to be on time to take the bus to school today, so i left home like five minutes earlier . In the end i reached and couldn't squeeze up the bus . Pekchek lol , so i strolled to school again .

Geog har har har i cleared the homework that i owe nlk (: Chemistry was just dumb lol . Pokemon erasers kept making contact with my head . Thank you damian . PAIN HOR . LOL . I got really freaked and scared cos of the audition :/ but in the end don't have . Math was just . Siying hope you don't find the letter grosss ( HAHAH ) :D

Physics. We played eraser fighting / flicking the eraser game or whatchucallit . Absolutely retarded . Had a pretty interesting english lesson lol . No elaboration needed . Lol at micheal jackson having breast implants HAHA .

Lunched with by mz and gladwin later the rest came . Went back with by and prac-ed outside class . Choir was ... hmm lol . Not too bad at first . A lot of us lost focus i think :/ K , stilla long way t go (: WE CAN DO IT EVERYONEEEE :)

After choir had to chiong off to tuition & i was like starving . Big thx to Aaron for helping me order food lol , then i had to rush offf and went to chi tuition 25 mins late .

Yep that's it for today i've gotta go study for SS's Fight for your Freedom test -_-

Ciao !

Carey